I thought she had gone and found her peace. She showed herself as a very brave and determined girl.
Taking 25g of SN without painkillers or anti-emetics against nausea and vomiting was really courageous and I admire her for that, in view of all warnings not to do it with SN on its own. And it seems she nearly succeeded and so peacefully and only after apparently only sipping some of the SN suspension., which is amazing, giving hope of success for others, despite it obviously being disappointing for her.
I also admire her for giving us progress updates, from having to lie on the bed, lying on her right side, her heart starting to beat fast, cold sweating, feeling pretty bad to begin with, then peaceful, starting to yawn a lot and feeling sleepier than she did before taking SN, her left arm feeling so heavy while holding her phone, and finally things starting to get blurry and hearing her heart beat. It sounds like a wonderful journey.
She might never reveal what made her call an ambulance and it is her right to keep it to herself. I can only speculate that she maybe got frightened by seeing her finger tips becoming bluish as cyanosis began to restrict the supply of oxygen to her blood and by the resulting difficulty in breathing. Of course, it is easy for me to say that I wouldn't have called, as I haven't yet been in her situation.
I fully understand why she wanted to CTB. She was earning good money escorting men, and they used her for their sexual gratification, but didn't respect her, seeming hating her for what she is - just a girl, to use her own words.
I would have loved to have done the SN CTB process together with her. We could have encouraged and convinced each other that we were doing the right thing and console each other when feeling the SN beginning to take life out of our bodies. Maybe that would have been enough to desist from calling an ambulance, as one of us doing it wouldn't have been fair on the other one of us and we could have then died together. It could even be made inevitable by choice simply by cutting off, hiding or switching off our phones.
I envy her for having a SN source, as that will probably be impossible when I finally CTB. But there are plenty of other ways, I'm glad to say.
I hope she reads this, so she will know how much she is admired, having set a nice example for many of us in similar situations to her's. Well done, girl.