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existentiallinguine

existentiallinguine

female Rust Cohle
Feb 10, 2026
59
Hi everybody! I've made the decision to take my life with SN in the upcoming weeks, basically as soon as I can get my hands on the stuff, but I've got a couple of questions first.

  1. So, following one of the guides on the website, benzodiazepines are recommended to dull the anxiety and unpleasantness, while I may be able to get access to them, considering I was on Klonopin as a teen and some might be at my parents still, it's ancient. That said, I have immediate access to THC. I'm curious if that's a half decent substitution for anxiety relief.
  2. Secondly, the guide has advice for a regular and large sized person. I'm incredibly small. I'm 4'11 and around 115 pounds. I'm curious if I would have to change the dosage in any way.
  3. Third, I've found a supplier, but I'm worried about it being illegitimate and don't want to wind up scammed. If anyone can give me advice on how to tell if someone is a reliable seller, so I'm not throwing my money away, please let me know.

Sorry if any of these questions are stupid. It's really important to me that I get this right.

Thank you so much for your help.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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That answers question #2, hopefully someone who knows can answer questions 1 & 3.
 
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existentiallinguine

female Rust Cohle
Feb 10, 2026
59
That answers question #2, hopefully someone who knows can answer questions 1 & 3.

Thank you so so so much!

Just an update I've ordered my SN. Pretty sure I overpayed but I'm kind of desperate. Hopefully the website sends me something. Still seeking answers to question 1 if anyone knows it.
 
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DeathWish3301

Experienced
May 15, 2024
229
Thank you so so so much!

Just an update I've ordered my SN. Pretty sure I overpayed but I'm kind of desperate. Hopefully the website sends me something. Still seeking answers to question 1 if anyone knows it.

Can't answer to how THC affects SN or the process. But the PPH talks about "Shelf Life & Storage of Drugs" starting on page 41.

 
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imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
174
Since @DeathSweetDeath responded to your second question, I'll ignore it.

Short answer for Q1, it can be a half-decent substitute, especially since it's far more available to most, but it won't hit that level of sedation like a benzo will; it'll take the sharp edge off the anxiety by altering your perception/mood, at best. Whether that is enough to stop you from calling emergency services mid-attempt only you could know.

Longer answer is as so, you need to understand that benzos work on GABA receptors and they're the primary inhibitory neurotransmitter, so if you enhance its activity, you end up slowing neural firing all together and your CNS is far more chill. They're also pretty fast-acting. On the other hand, THC binds to entirely different receptors of the brain and by extension causes some anxiety-reducing effect(s), but that's through dopamine and serotonin modulation and similar, less meaningful pathways. The effect is really dose-dependant and of course extremely individual, but given you have "immediate" access, I'll assume you already know you respond. That being said, it probably would get the job done. The problem arises from the fact that THC isn't really directly responsible for suppressing anxiety. Benzos are far superior for sedation which is why they recommend them to try fully mask the physical discomfort and distress you'll go through. The effect is stronger, more reliable, and has no doubt about its efficacy.

These are small details in the grand scheme of things, provided you ensure the SN is indeed consumed, even by a second glass if necessary, you will certainly die even without sedative drugs. It's just that touch easier if you sedate yourself to ensure you don't call emergency services after you panic and/or vomit.

For Q3, the answer is simple: you don't know if someone is a reliable seller. Even if someone has sold to others you know, they could always exit scam you, send you bunk rubbish, or just not send anything. There are endless possibilities. What matters is that you simply DYOR on the vendor, don't put all your eggs in one basket, and please, please, do both the blood spot test and the nitrate test. You do not want to leave uncertainty in your attempt, it only adds to the panic you feel, believe me.

Those weren't stupid questions at all! Hugs. <3
 
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existentiallinguine

female Rust Cohle
Feb 10, 2026
59
Short answer for Q1, it can be a half-decent substitute, especially since it's far more available to most, but it won't hit that level of sedation like a benzo will; it'll take the sharp edge off the anxiety by altering your perception/mood, at best. Whether that is enough to stop you from calling emergency services mid-attempt only you could know.
Much appreciated! I'm pretty sure I can get my hands on those old pills but I can't be sure of their effectiveness as they're a solid decade old, but I remember enough about my dosage I think I'll be able to figure it out. Since I am still struggling to source proper anti vomiting medication this will probably be the best route. Those online pharmacies are ungodly expensive and I'm stuck in the states where none of them are OTC. Last thing I want is to be focusing on these things.


please, please, do both the blood spot test and the nitrate test. You do not want to leave uncertainty in your attempt, it only adds to the panic you feel, believe me.

Those weren't stupid questions at all! Hugs. <3
I've seen posts floating around about these but please feel free to link them in the threads because this site is kind of hard to navigate and I obviously want to make sure I have all my stuff together.

I can't express my thanks enough. I am really looking forward to this being over. Thank you all for your incredible kindness.
 
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imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
174
Much appreciated! I'm pretty sure I can get my hands on those old pills but I can't be sure of their effectiveness as they're a solid decade old, but I remember enough about my dosage I think I'll be able to figure it out. Since I am still struggling to source proper anti vomiting medication this will probably be the best route. Those online pharmacies are ungodly expensive and I'm stuck in the states where none of them are OTC. Last thing I want is to be focusing on these things.



I've seen posts floating around about these but please feel free to link them in the threads because this site is kind of hard to navigate and I obviously want to make sure I have all my stuff together.

I can't express my thanks enough. I am really looking forward to this being over. Thank you all for your incredible kindness.


If you use the sanctioned-suicide.net domain, replace the URL before /threads/ with that domain and it'll take you to the same place.
 
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RainyDays

Member
Jan 30, 2026
60
Hi everybody! I've made the decision to take my life with SN in the upcoming weeks, basically as soon as I can get my hands on the stuff, but I've got a couple of questions first.

  1. So, following one of the guides on the website, benzodiazepines are recommended to dull the anxiety and unpleasantness, while I may be able to get access to them, considering I was on Klonopin as a teen and some might be at my parents still, it's ancient. That said, I have immediate access to THC. I'm curious if that's a half decent substitution for anxiety relief.
  2. Secondly, the guide has advice for a regular and large sized person. I'm incredibly small. I'm 4'11 and around 115 pounds. I'm curious if I would have to change the dosage in any way.
  3. Third, I've found a supplier, but I'm worried about it being illegitimate and don't want to wind up scammed. If anyone can give me advice on how to tell if someone is a reliable seller, so I'm not throwing my money away, please let me know.

Sorry if any of these questions are stupid. It's really important to me that I get this right.

Thank you so much for your help.
There might be information on this that you might find helpful : https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
 
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adaflower

Member
Feb 21, 2026
16
Can I ask you a clue on where you ordered it ?
 

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