Venting SI failed PSH #3

[aego]

im actually so ass at everything i do oh my god.

i FINALLY found the spot on my neck where it'll make me pass out instead of making my face feels like it's exploding…

… only to sit back up after i ALMOST pass out.

the worst part, is that ITS ALWAYS THE PERFECT TIME WHEN NOBODY WOULD'VE CHECKED ON ME FOR HOURS.

i kind of wish i could be dead set and make up my mind. not suicidal enough to go through with it apparently, but not determined enough to make an actual cry for help/get the meds i need to catch up to everyone else.

 

[slowlybreaking]

mood.

 

[lightningwallcloud]

I've tried PSH (granted those times were not well planned and more impulsive) and it's hard to deal with SI. Honestly congrats on getting the sweet spot. I've decided to try SN but PSH is there as a backup. I think it takes a lot of guts to do PSH. Don't feel bad and know that there are others in the same boat.

 

[FF777]

i'd put some more value on your life than that.. if you can't decide whether you want to CTB yet or not then why are you trying?.. you can always do it later if you change your mind.. stick around for a bit longer and do some things you enjoy.. CTB will always be there when and if you ever need it later; it's not going any where..