should i start smoking weed before i ctb

[eggsausagerice]

sorry for posting so many questions. my anhedonia's slowly killing me. i keep getting angry so i keep on having intrusive thoughts about hurting myself. self harm feels good because i get a spike of activity in my brain when i do it, but then i have to hit myself so that i feel good again. i usually hit my arms and my legs with the back of a hairbrush, or i punch them with my knuckles. i don't want to cut because it would be too obvious to my family. i don't have anyone in my life i can talk to still, since i just make people uncomfortable when i talk about my depression.

i'm 20 so i can legally buy hemp/cbd, but i've never smoked it or anything. i've tried vaping one time but it made me cough a lot because i didn't know how to do it. i figure since i'm going to die i might as well try it, since i can't legally drink. on the drive back home my dad passes by 3 smoke shops in a row. it's pretty crazy how many there are in town.

 

[starboy2k]

hell yea. spark that shit up and enjoy the ride. weed is awesome just don't overdo it. greening out sucks and make sure you have food on standby.

 

[Grog]

For me personally, marijuana helps my depression and anxiety a ton; even more-so than my prescription meds. I'd say it's worth a shot! Definitely a better alternative to CTB in my humble opinion -- as long as it makes you feel better!

 

[RosebyAnyName]

I'd say try it, just don't take too much the first time or you might have a really bad experience.
I'd recommend smoking a joint or using a bong for a first time, just one or two puffs should be plenty if you have no tolerance.

 

[Alreadylate]

Put a little bit of weed mixed with tobacco!

 

[s00ngone]

I'd say try it, just don't take too much the first time or you might have a really bad experience.
I'd recommend smoking a joint or using a bong for a first time, just one or two puffs should be plenty if you have no tolerance.

I wouldn't even go for a bong for a first time, personally. I had a hookup years ago bring his bong. I'd never touched weed before, and a few bong rips and some shotgunning later, I was a dissociated wreck having a nervous breakdown not able to remember where I was or what was happening. He had to guide me to my bed and soothe me while I was sobbing. Not my proudest moment.

That is to say, be careful, OP, and godspeed. I use weed lately to escape - plan on getting some more today - so I get the appeal. I hope you're able to enjoy yourself to any capacity. <3

 

[Rynalia]

If not for the fact that I could be drug tested by work at any time, I would be going back to using the jane.

Shit has helped me through some pretty bad emergencies and kept me from frequent flying into wards non-stop.

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Might as well try it and see if it takes the edge off the ctb urge even a wee bit.

Also, for vaping, the first few times are going to be tough especially if you aren't used to smoking anything already. Just take it slow, little and easy--don't try to emulate other people. Oh, also have a drink on hand just in case.

 

[gonesoon!]

I smoke a lot. It helps me by giving me an appetite and it lets me dissociate easily which I like. And it can make things a lot more entertaining. I sometimes think about if its actually harming me in the long run. Truthfully I dont know what I'd do without it. Im addicted. But yeah. Ease into it if you do.

PS im sorry you feel like you need to hurt yourself. I honestly have never seen someone else say they do what I do. ie punch their arms and legs. I also cant cut myself because my family would notice. And im scared. Just know you arent alone because Ive been beating the shit out of myself.

 

[NonEssential]

Is weed as good as they say? Besides sex, smoking weed is also another thing that everyone except me has tried.

 

[DeadSouls]

Try gummies! They are nice without having to smoke.

 

[Rynalia]

Is weed as good as they say? Besides sex, smoking weed is also another thing that everyone except me has tried.

Experience may vary, as with most things.

For some it takes the edge off their mental health problems a bit, for others it makes it worse. You won't really know how you'll react unless you try it.

By the time I started smoking/vaping jane, I was already on a blaze of glory of destroying my body on purpose in several ways so the extra potential complications were basically meaningless to me. But I benefitted from it, so it wasn't a net negative overall.

Some people get really enthusiastic about weed though, so there might be a little bit of exaggeration at play sometimes.