Help Should I run away or kill myself?

[ChrisN]

I've been thinking about suicide since I was around 8 years old, since then I tried to do it in various ways, at the beginning they were very silly and the ones that in this same place do not recommend, after trying so much at 22 years old I am still thinking about whether to do it by suffocation or try one last attempt to feel better, I'm thinking about leaving home and getting away from my family forever, every time I try to explain who I am and looking for my freedom I only receive complaints and restrictions, I'm tired, I don't have money and I don't know where to go, I don't even know if I have anywhere to go, whatever I do I have to do it as soon as possible, I need help choosing

 

[nesquik]

Have you tried looking for jobs with live in accomodation? a lot of holiday resorts seem to have them.

 

[violetforever]

this is the exact question i ask myself :/ i have no money and nowhere to go either but i would like to see how life is without my family who i feel holds me back so much and is full of abuse. i doubt it would be much better since i will be struggling completely alone. so it all comes back to just killing myself.

 

[SquirtleKyun]

I'm in this exact same boat. Currently dealing with a drunk and lazy father and no support system. I want to disappear and live on my own but it's just so expensive trying to carve out something for myself. I keep falling back to suicide since there doesn't seem to be a way out. I hope at least you know youre not alone