Venting Should i relapse

[plast1c_sk1n]

396 days clean tdy

i wanna cut again

nothing rly happened. life is good. i got into my dream school in a nearby city. idk how to feel tho. its like every single person around me is better than me. i didnt deserve to get in. ive been drawing all my life. im 19 now. but im still not good at it.

i just want to cut again

im sure ill regret it tomorrow morning

396 days clean

if one person tells me to cut i will

 

[getoutgirl]

does it work the other way around? if I tell you not to cut would you not? at least for another day
you are 4 short of 400 cmon that's a nice number. and 401 is even better
try and stay away of that thought if you can, and I believe that you can <3

 

[Arb]

Aim for a higher number of days! Bigger bragging rights and honestly who doesn't love being able to say they've been able to do something difficult for such a long time. 400 does sound like an awesome number, 500 is pretty satisfying but then you gotta go up to an even more satisfying number like 650.

Proud of you for being able to be clean for over a year, don't feel bad that you want to relapse, it's normal for people who have suffered alot to find comfort in old pains, our brains are just weird like that

 

[moonflow3r]

there is a reason you got in, don't overlook your own achievements </3

 

[webb&flow]

No matter what, you've done a wonderful job of even having such a high streak in the first place. You are strong regardless <3

 

[plast1c_sk1n]

Thank you all

It seems every time night comes these days I want to cut again. I need to get better at art. Everything is moving too fast I wish i could go back in time.

397 days

i dont like the number 4