Help Should I CTB to Avoid The Ward

[LostZombie]

I am gonna be stuck there, but don't worry its a "willing program". Until I leave then my parents will call the police and get me sent to an even worse place.

So I am thinking maybe if I could CTB tonight since I have my SN, and I will finish eating dinner at around 21:00 so i would have to wait till 05:00 until it's safe to take my SN. I will not be found for at least 3 hours, but I'm afraid I'm gonna puke out all of my SN since I don't have any meds to stop it (I have over 100g of SN for backup, but will I puke it all out?). So I am wondering do if CTB tonight, or if that is too risky. I'm just so ready to go honestly , and I think I might, but I just want to make sure that this decision is not a stupid one.

 

[Hollowman]

No one's going to tell you if you should.

 

[sakakap]

Even if you're dead set I would personally recommend against taking SN without an antiemetic. There's a good chance you'll just puke it all out and is losing your sn + being sent to that other place really a risk you're willing to take?

 

[Firefly.Forest]

I am gonna be stuck there, but don't worry its a "willing program". Until I leave then my parents will call the police and get me sent to an even worse place.

So I am thinking maybe if I could CTB tonight since I have my SN, and I will finish eating dinner at around 21:00 so i would have to wait till 05:00 until it's safe to take my SN. I will not be found for at least 3 hours, but I'm afraid I'm gonna puke out all of my SN since I don't have any meds to stop it (I have over 100g of SN for backup, but will I puke it all out?). So I am wondering do if CTB tonight, or if that is too risky. I'm just so ready to go honestly , and I think I might, but I just want to make sure that this decision is not a stupid one.

I am very sorry for the very difficult situation you are in. As much as I can appreciate why you would ask the forum - about CTB to avoid the ward - the only one who can answer that question is you.

There have been people who have succeeded with just SN - just as there have been failures with SN and AE and other variations - there is no way to know how it will go for you.

I wish you clarity and peace in whatever journey you choose. Hugs to you

 

[LostZombie]

the only one who can answer that question is you.

I wish you clarity and peace in whatever journey you choose. Hugs to you

Thanks I'm just losing it, and am usure of anything at this point anymore thanks

 

[Firefly.Forest]

Thanks I'm just losing it, and am usure of anything at this point anymore thanks

That is completely understandable. I wish I was able to say or do something to make it better for you and for all of us - you will be in my thoughts.