Toobrokentofix
Experienced
- Jul 7, 2020
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I got this deleted from a recovery forum yesterday even though its more of a weighing up poem rather than a suicide poem. I had put a trigger warning but no-one spoke to me they just removed it.bthat reminded me why I don't really fir anywhere else unless I can be 100% to "rexovery" made me feel so ahit and alone. Anyway
Dialectic dilemma
Fragments of mind
Shattered and colliding
Losing my grip and feel myself sliding
Lower and deeper in this void of confusion
What is the truth
I reach no conclusion
I search for the answers
But my transient soul
It's too broken to fix
All alone in this hole
Don't want to leave but I really can't stay
I just need to make all the thoughts go away
The feeling of emptiness is too much to bear
But feeling my feelings
Takes me somewhere
That I don't want to go
And I'm too scared to rest
Where I'm trapped with all the parts of myself I detest
Body on fire and memories race
Don't know how to let go
Or how to embrace
The past is too painful
The future unknown
I don't want to be here
Nowhere feels like home
Nowhere feels safe when I'm lost in my head
I want to survive and I want to be dead
Dialectic dilemma
Fragments of mind
Shattered and colliding
Losing my grip and feel myself sliding
Lower and deeper in this void of confusion
What is the truth
I reach no conclusion
I search for the answers
But my transient soul
It's too broken to fix
All alone in this hole
Don't want to leave but I really can't stay
I just need to make all the thoughts go away
The feeling of emptiness is too much to bear
But feeling my feelings
Takes me somewhere
That I don't want to go
And I'm too scared to rest
Where I'm trapped with all the parts of myself I detest
Body on fire and memories race
Don't know how to let go
Or how to embrace
The past is too painful
The future unknown
I don't want to be here
Nowhere feels like home
Nowhere feels safe when I'm lost in my head
I want to survive and I want to be dead
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