SadLoser
Student
- Jul 31, 2021
- 102
When I heard that my heart skipped a beat. Instantly became super anxious, started pacing around my room for an hour I think. I've been drinking all day to help me cope with it... Once it wears off it's back to intense anxiety and depression...
I just hate how obsessed I am with these women. She was so affectionate towards me at the start. It was perfect. Why couldn't it have stayed this way? What's so repulsive about me that they all lose interest no matter how enthusiastic they are about me at first? I hate it so much. All these rejections. These obsessions. I can't sleep at night. I just want someone to love me.
I just hate how obsessed I am with these women. She was so affectionate towards me at the start. It was perfect. Why couldn't it have stayed this way? What's so repulsive about me that they all lose interest no matter how enthusiastic they are about me at first? I hate it so much. All these rejections. These obsessions. I can't sleep at night. I just want someone to love me.
