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andy69

Experienced
May 23, 2019
292
a teaching career/job, seeing Europe, being with the person I love.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
1,051
If I wasn't suicidal these would still be hard to achieve

- Make it as a rapper, sounds dumb out loud but I just love music but I'm not very good at speaking normally or to other people

- Another one is A vet or zookeeper, this sounds achievable to others but I'm not academically gifted and I'm not smart at all so I would not be able to get the grades needed to be accepted into college

Maybe it's just not for me :/
 
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SelfHatingAspie

SelfHatingAspie

Ambitious but rubbish
Jul 2, 2019
198
I'll never travel overseas. I live vicariously through well-travelled friends of mine, but it's not quite the same.
 
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GHOST99

Member
Jun 8, 2019
39
I wanted to get rid of my anxiety/depression, live quietly away from the city. my most extreme dream is to compete in motoGP or at least compete in circuit racing of some sort(this one is impossible, i'd never make it lmao)
 
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IveHadEnough

a defective cell
Jul 17, 2019
16
I wanted to write a book someday. Unfortunately I'm too stupid for that.. I also always wished to make a real-life friend, but this never happened
 
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Ratbat

Ratbat

Psycho loser
Jul 17, 2019
79
Place to share the dreams you have had for life and feel will never be fulfilled because of how life has turned out.
Or maybe dreams you wish can be fulfilled as you have some hope for the future.

Not only the body dies, all dreams and hopes do too
Record an album.of songs
 
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Purple777

Member
Jun 10, 2019
34
I wanted to continue playing the violin and read as much as possible. One of my biggest regrets was that I let go of the things I loved to do because I wanted put my finances first and work all the time . While financial stability is really good, I feel like life isn't worth living if you don't have a hobby or passion that you makes you look forward to each day.
 
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Santiago

Mage
Mar 25, 2018
588
I see so many people in here mentioning they are not smart enough to accomplish something academically. Fuck that I don't believe in that at all. Unless you suffer from an intellectual disability you just have to work hard.

I swear people sometimes act like those with high degrees have a gift or are talented to get where they are. That's total bullshit. They work their ass off. Sometimes they spend days trying to understand a single concept. Sometimes even after all that work they still fail, but they keep going.

You have no idea how many times I had mental breakdowns where I feel like I didn't have it in me. That's part of life. The quote 'if it was easy anyone would do it' isn't just cliché. It holds true.

One thing is for sure with that mindset you won't do it, no.

Not having a decent foundation for college isn't an excuse either. You all have internet.

Had to get that off my chest. Probably controversial and I will probably be attacked by the people who feel like they are useless, but I couldn't care less.
 
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Lifetimepunishment

Lifetimepunishment

Member
Feb 18, 2019
55
I want to be financially stable and help my family or friends.
 
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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
To be able to talk to people and feel wanted by others ?
 
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nomorefight

nomorefight

Member
Jul 1, 2019
43
having a baby, laughing, experiencing being in love
 
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Pilum Muralis

Pilum Muralis

“We'll never be as young as we are tonight.”
Jul 2, 2019
187
Finishing my RN credits
Being a mother
Learning to swing dance
Homesteading and living off the land, or off the grid.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
To travel abroad, to move back to the seaside town I grew up in, two simple things that will never happen.
 
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Catch_The_Beaver

Catch_The_Beaver

Living corpse
Jul 2, 2019
26
I will never get my phd and publish my own papers.

I will never found the business/company that I always envisioned

I will never make any of my artistic ideas into reality (drawing maps and writing a scifi book)

I will never experience having children
 
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laiduponit

laiduponit

sleeping
Jul 2, 2019
38
wanted to study astrophysics (natural sciences) also wanted a daughter and a son
 
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Niny

Member
May 18, 2019
10
I wanted to study physics, tried but failed. I also wish I could be in a relationship but borderline gets in the way. I want to feel useful and feel like I'm a good person and want to make people happy..
 
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peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
Get a job, live comfortably, and die peacefully in my sleep.
 
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Brainpain

chronic pain
Jun 14, 2019
106
Well I always dreamed of an early retirement on the beach, which my career, income and childfree lifestyle made easily attainable. Then chronic pain entered my life and took it all away from me before dying will.
Professional violin player. been playing the violin since i was 6. simply love it. I'm quite good. but never good enough :-(

Fellow musician here. I had the chance to study and perhaps play professionally at one point. I threw that all away because of self doubt. Maybe you were good enough but never saw it in yourself. Do you still play recreationally ? I always wanted to learn a string instrument just for fun. I had my eyes on viola. That obviously won't be happening now.
 
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Ladylethal

Ladylethal

Member
Jun 16, 2019
91
I really wanted to go to Japan...I've studied the Japanese language and culture for so long. I'm certain I was Japanese in another lifetime....I can't explain it.
I wanted to go to Disney World. To take back what my mother took from me and never see my family again. I wanted to expunge my record and finally go to school so I could become a forensic psychologist...a victim's advocate...or a cosmetic scientist.
I wanted to be a spokesperson that spoke on the issues of domestic violence and mental health.
I wanted to finally see what it's like to be in a normal and loving relationship. Deep down I knew this was never going to happen but I really wanted to know what it was like to be one of those "happy couples". I'm painfully aware that every couple, person etc has their issues...but it would've been nice to know what it's like to be with someone who doesn't scream, make excuses and call you names when you try to plan dates with them. Or when you finally do convince them to go with you, they'll either tear you down, force you to change, yell at you in front of everyone or make you pay for everything.
I also never got the opportunity to just date women like I wanted lol. I secretly hated men.
 
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Codieb1

Student
Jun 18, 2019
178
I just wanted to know what it felt like to be wanted and loved
 
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IchIsGone

IchIsGone

Member
Nov 2, 2018
21
Own a sailboat, sail around the world and move to Hawaii.
 
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Reaper44

Reaper44

...
Jul 20, 2019
31
I wanted to become a comedian so I could make people smile and have a good time even when I was feeling down. I gave it a shot but I wasn't very successful. I think the main reason I stopped trying was because I didn't want to hurt anyone else who might already be going through a hard time when I CTB. I also wanted to become an author, but I kept running into writer's block. I had a hard time concentrating when all I could think about was death.
 
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Ratbat

Ratbat

Psycho loser
Jul 17, 2019
79
I wanted to become a comedian so I could make people smile and have a good time even when I was feeling down. I gave it a shot but I wasn't very successful. I think the main reason I stopped trying was because I didn't want to hurt anyone else who might already be going through a hard time when I CTB. I also wanted to become an author, but I kept running into writer's block. I had a hard time concentrating when all I could think about was death.
I know how u feel whn it comes to writers block
 
bath salts

bath salts

| goodnight |
Jul 19, 2019
93
Learning how love feels.
 
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Hennessy

Hennessy

Specialist
Jan 14, 2019
360
Become rich so I could quit my job.
 
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Saga

Saga

In my memories a smiling me doesn't exist
Jul 20, 2019
175
i just wanted to be happy...but even that dream is already too impossible
 
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Azazel

Azazel

Silent
Jun 23, 2019
38
I wanted to write a book someday. Unfortunately I'm too stupid for that.. I also always wished to make a real-life friend, but this never happened

My point of view is that anyone can write a book, as long as they have something to say. It's easy for any writer to think that their texts are not good enough, , but if you are able to overcome that, I'm sure you would be able to write one and many more books. It doesn't even have to be a good book, the first one you write. I would recomend not focusing on writing a book, but on writing itself,be it half a page or be it five hundred. Think about what you want to say, what story you want to tell, if you want to tell one, and then just write for the sake of it. Also, I like to think that not liking what you wrote yesterday means that today you are a better writer. The friend part, I don't know the details, but I know it can be really hard, sometimes you just don't meet the right people of are unable to connect with them even if you want to. Anyway, Iwish you good luck, it's never too late to make friends.
I will never get my phd and publish my own papers.

I will never found the business/company that I always envisioned

I will never make any of my artistic ideas into reality (drawing maps and writing a scifi book)

I will never experience having children

I really hope you can accomplish at least one of those things, sometimes there's some light even in the darkest shitholes. (And I think that someone who has a Beksinski profile picture must write some amazing sci-fi)
 
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Lennox

Lennox

No alarms, and no surprises...
Jul 21, 2019
223
I wanted to complete my engineering degree, and see my business really take off.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,706
My dream of becoming a great concert pianist and being able to make a good living off of that. Sadly, not only do I fall short of keeping up with the musicians at conservatories (let alone top end ones), but also being a concert pianist or in the music field is no easy feat and making a living doing that is tough, if not downright impossible in today's job market. There just simply isn't enough jobs to go around and even less in the performing arts world. Sadly, that's just the reality of the music and arts fields.

My other dreams were to become successful with my professional career (in IT/computers) and be able to live comfortably, but even then that seems like a pipe dream given how my life turned out. Right now, just scraping by financially.
 
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komm susser todd

komm susser todd

Become the master of your own fate
Jul 21, 2019
78
Wanted to better my own drawing capability and be a character desigber for anime/manga/video games. Wanted to make a 14 entry long video games series that would be dark and depressing as fuck but also makes you pumped up ROW ROW FIGHT DA POWA.

And wanted some one to come home to after a long day and hold in my arms

Tonights the night so....never
 
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