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[.koocain]

at first i used to think ppl who did selfharm were so foolish and how its such ameaningless coping mechanism,but i was wrong , first time i relapsed was when ky bf left me and i cut my arms a lilbit and then tge cuts woukd start stinging and burning and i just missed the feeling of actually feeling something, ever since he left me ive been numb thinking about him rn just makes me nauseous.

anyways days after i still selfharmed and some days i would just losecontrol and start cutting everywhere nonestop. then id wake up the next morning regretting what i did, i cant stop its addicting i promise myself everytime to not to it sgain but even when the smallest inconveniencehhappens i go straight to the blade. it used to be my arms obky but now i do on my thighs, also when my scars start to go away i always have the urge to reppen and cht them. idk whats wrong with me i just dont wabt to feel invalid or anything , i dont want to sound clichedbut im being so deadass i cant stop. ive been clean for about 2 weeks now bc im on holiday rn but ik holidays are wnding in like a week and my life is going to return back to normal, i just know i wont be able to stay clean. im so tired of this

 

[Cauliflour]

at first i used to think ppl who did selfharm were so foolish and how its such ameaningless coping mechanism,but i was wrong , first time i relapsed was when ky bf left me and i cut my arms a lilbit and then tge cuts woukd start stinging and burning and i just missed the feeling of actually feeling something, ever since he left me ive been numb thinking about him rn just makes me nauseous.

Good ol' dopamine back at it again!

This'll probably sound cliche, but you do it to feel something, right? How about going into a hot bath and lying in there until you've had enough of the pain from the heat? I've heard that from somewhere as a replacement coping mechanism. It'll probably make your scars sting like mad though so uhhhh...yeah I got nothing. You are valid though. Cutting to feel something isn't that uncommon.

 

[Merocero]

man i can relate, ill never escape cutting either, i cant stay clean longer than like 3 days?? i just keep going back every day to it... its tiring but at the same time at least i get to feel something and be in control for once

 

[.koocain]

man i can relate, ill never escape cutting either, i cant stay clean longer than like 3 days?? i just keep going back every day to it... its tiring but at the same time at least i get to feel something and be in control for once

hope u heal soon twin