willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
2,937
I haven't cut myself in over a year. I prefer invisible self harm. I don't get too much out of cutting, and honestly haven't since I was a teenager. Every once in awhile I get the urge, but I prefer other methods. But god the urge to cut today. It's so fucking strong. I want to slash everywhere. I want to go as deep as my body will let me. I want to create a blood bath. I just want to make a fucking disaster. I can't though. My arms are off limits because I wear short sleeves/roll my sleeves up at work all the time. It's getting hot here, I'd like to be able to wear shorts. I have sex somewhat regularly and I know he would probably say he's not going to keep it going if I have visible self harm. If only cutting to death was an option, I'd go out in a blaze of bloody glory.

My mind is so, so broken. Who would've thought that one decision to cut at 9 would turn into this. I can't wait until my time comes.
 
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Dopamine_Junkie44

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Nov 12, 2023
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Hei. What invisible self-harm do you do?
 
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timetodie24

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Apr 14, 2023
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I'm sorry the urges are so strong 😢 I know it can be so addictive. I relate to what you say about one decision , I never thought a scratch at 13 would end up in more serious harm years later.
 

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