AndrewWood'sDeath
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- Aug 11, 2021
- 25
I hope you can find some peace in your remaining days don't feel regret for other people judging you instead of supporting you. And if you really feel you made mistakes well of course we all do its okay you have done what you can in, at least you tried and as someone else who is constantly finding ways to punish themselves I understand this is impossible but I'll be hoping for you that you find a little reprieve from the self abuse in your remaining day and someway to accept yourself just a tiny bit.I used to self-harm by restricting food and therefore developed anorexia. It felt so good restricting food because I feel like I'm punishiing myself for all the bad I've done. I still do it sometimes. I just never tell anyone about it anymore because the last time some former friends knew about it they guilted me for having anorexia. Looks like i can never do anything right. I lost those friends, I stressed them out too much. I'm too much. lol sorry for rambling, it's just that my last day alive is coming very quickly and my regrets are flooding me
Also its rare to find people who will love us at our worst and I think most or all people will face that fight sometimes. Really at our darkest we either stay broken and stay alone or don't have human relationships again until we are no longer at our worst, its sad but so it goes.