Resource Self Harm Support Thread

[Nobodi]

I have slices on my harms (forearm area) most are like cat scratches but I have do have couple of keloid scars they help with stress management. The keloid ones help the most because it gave me the time to stop thinking about what I was going through with an individual employed by the nypd. The pain force me to be in the present moment and stopped me from rumination. If it wasn't for chat gpt I would to much difficulty express/ articulate the complaint. I'm still going through this issue now the internal affair take months to investigate ,up to 15 months from what I read I'll have to call them to see the update but I'm struggling to do that because the case is complex and very nerve wrecking I know this lacks context but when I'm ready I'll hope to have the strength to speak up , I have no choice I have to. It pretty much the whole reason why I'm even here to begin with. I will fight back even it kills me

 

[ConfusedClouds]

Thanks @Dot - I thought I had read this before and not found it helpful, but defo found some useful info this time! Funny how that happens over time.

The deep ones can take a couple months. And as they heal sometimes the wound looks like it gets deeper.

Thanks for the reassurance. Some more research (off of Dot's article) has got me to finally understand that its a little 'slough' I see in there at times too. But mainly just need to give me time and patience

I agree antibiotics are a funny one. I remember going to a walk-in for an insect bite (from travels to SE Asia) that hadn't healed after a few weeks (I was just after some dressings) and the nurse panicked and got me put in front of gp and on antibiotics when it was not inflammed/getting worse, nor was it an open wound - though I suppose it did heal quick after - wouldn't want to know how they might react to these! Let alone having 'clear' medical records for psych. Can only imagine it becoming a huge drama I would be at a loss for words for, making things a ton worse! Urgh...

 

[Liammm]

I wish I could cut but I can't because my body is being inspected semi weekly for some health reasons. I started biting again, and I kinda realized I've been doing this throughout my life? I thought i only started sh recently but eh it doesn't matter. I'm just frustrated that I cant do what i want to. Ugh.

Atleast when I bite in public, no one assumes or guesses, cause to others it looks like I'm covering my mouth or somethjng. Its atleast better than having to get my set up with my hidden blade and alcohol. It is genuinely more easy to do.

Sometimes, I bite and I have to latch on. If I let go for even a second, the thoughts flood back in. I'll stop and then I'll think that I'm invalid for biting sometimes too. I know it's kinda childish but idk. It's what i knew to do when i was stressed. And what i still know to do.

 

[iset]

I had a lot of pressure from family members. This led to a blackout and I apparently swallowed several blisters of pills. There are fresh cuts, I have zero memory of them.

 

[Yeeperooniez]

I have been self harming since about 15 and it started with punching walls but eventually when I became more emotionally charged and things started getting worse, cutting myself didn't seem so bad and didn't hurt too much. Eventually I ended up with a ton of scars on my arms that I have to look at now and are really embarrassing and make me want to die even more. I just can't take it anymore and want it all to stop

 

[maybunni]

I'm not sure why but I've been having the urge to SH for the last couple days despite no particular stressor in my life currently. I don't understand it?
Granted I've SH since I was 13 and it's been 10 years on and off but I just don't understand why I'm feeling the urge so deeply right now.

 

[Dot]

I'm not sure why but I've been having the urge to SH for the last couple days despite no particular stressor in my life currently. I don't understand it?
Granted I've SH since I was 13 and it's been 10 years on and off but I just don't understand why I'm feeling the urge so deeply right now.

Mght snd strnge bt r u bord

 

[jenson]

I mean, the craziest thing I ever did was burn myself with cigarettes every now and then. It started when I was hanging out with this girl I really liked in high school. She threatened to burn my arm with one when I was at her house with some friends one night. I told her to do it and she did. It wasn't because she was aware I liked her or anything (at least I don't think although it turned out later she was bat shit insane). I actually liked how it felt and it was fun shocking people when I would do it. I ended up with a few scars from it although I typically tried to burn in the same spot.

 

[deep-sleeper]

My preferred method to this day is punching myself, I've done it for as long as I known myself, last year, during a pretty rough month in uni, my right leg was pretty much colorful from all the hematomas

 

[EvisceratedJester]

My counsellor suggested me using rubber bands for my SH and they gave me one to wear. Well, I should be asleep right now but I'm awake snapping the rubber band against my wrist instead and now my wrist is all red and swollen. What was supposed to help me with my SH has instead turned into another SH method.

Spoiler: Tw SH

It looks more red and purplish irl.

The rubber band is also stretched out now

 

[CompulsiveParasite]

I do not know if this is considered SH but I've been doing this for almost a decade now, I use a nipper to cut pieces of my skin from my hands and soles of my feet
I rarely slice of enough skin on my hands to make it bleed, but on the soles of my feet I like to cut deeper until it bleeds so every step I take hurts

Seems like I hide it well enough because nobody has ever questioned me about it and even when I told a friend once he thought I was joking
Doing this brings me little to no benefit anymore, I mostly do it out of habit or when I'm stressed out of my mind

I've been having big urges to give cutting a try but I'm unable to do it with proper hygiene and I am unable to buy supplies for it in my current state
Nonetheless SH isn't a solution to my problems and will only magnitude my hatred towards myself so its something I try to stop