Resource Self Harm Support Thread

[futileflutters]

I've been self harming with burns for a decade, but cuts are so much more satisfying to the point where I do 4-12 a day now.

This is some of today's.

Side note, is the yellowish dot in the center of the slightly gaping cut a tiny peek into the fat layer? Didn't see it till looking back at these photos after cleaning up.

Spoiler: TW: Bleeding Cuts

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Side note, is the yellowish dot in the center of the slightly gaping cut a tiny peek into the fat layer? Didn't see it till looking back at these photos after cleaning up.

Yes, that is the fat.

 

[The_screaming_dawn]

I started when I was 11 by taking nail clippers and cutting into my toe skin and ripping it off. 12 progressed to knives, 18 weed and alcohol combined with the knives. Im trying to quit but college is- not where i should be. But im here. Because why would I be able to make my own choices in the household im in. Yay.

 

[enough of this]

My self-harm is spiritual, not physical. I self-sabotage - set myself up for failure, sometimes just so I can maintain my addiction(s). But when my addictions are more soothing than my reality, it's worth it.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

My self-harm is spiritual, not physical. I self-sabbotage

How do you harm yourself spiritually? I'm not a very spiritual person...

 

[enough of this]

How do you harm yourself spiritually? I'm not a very spiritual person...

I make up that people are intentionally hurting me. Or, I'll put myself in a situation where I'll be hurt by something or someone.

 

[timetodie24]

Anyone else self-harm by swallowing objects (foreign body ingestion) ?
Not new to SH at all, have done it for 10 years, but new to this method. I'm quite ashamed of it but can't stop.

 

[four_walls_girl]

Tried cutting myself with a butter knife at 14 lmao. But it didn't work properly obviously and I was just like "this is dumb as shit" and didn't try it again until 22 after some family drama involving my grandad being outed as a pedo oop.

Now I can't feel satisfied until I hit fat :/
But even then obviously it doesn't feel enough, I don't particularly even want to go deep like to the point way past fat, I just want the cuts to be large enough to create really big scars, For me cutting is more about the visual stim/ "aesthetic" along with the emotional regulation aspect anyways. Makes it feel a little more invalidating, but it is what it is.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I'm trying for them thats the only resone but my hope in my resone is always weary I can't take it I have this itch and I can't take it this shaking and this aching I need to let out, I can't take it i need to breath I'm with family i gotta get out of the bathroom control my shaking and go smile smile smile, bite your tounge ill get what I need when I go.

 

[senti-mental]

does anyone else prefer duller knives. not like, dull enough to not cut, but dull enough to have less control over the cut. idk, I find it more satisfying when I have to use more pressure and kinda tear at the skin for it to make it deep enough. it doesn't hurt anymore than the razor sharp blades/knives but its a different pain and I like how the cuts/scars look more

 

[brickedup]

i'm in recovery rn i hope i last a while. i've SHed for years and though i don't have much scars i very much do regret it. to anyone reading this, please stop while you still can. and if you are in recovery, good luck

 

[futileflutters]

does anyone else prefer duller knives. not like, dull enough to not cut, but dull enough to have less control over the cut. idk, I find it more satisfying when I have to use more pressure and kinda tear at the skin for it to make it deep enough. it doesn't hurt anymore than the razor sharp blades/knives but its a different pain and I like how the cuts/scars look more

Cannot say I can relate to preferring to need more pressure, but 100% agree that my most satisfying cuts are ones that I by intent or not have only a loose control over the blade.

 

[nekkocrose]

Eu adoro me cortar. As cicatrizes que faço, quanto sangue sai. Não sinto que o corte esteja bom o suficiente, a menos que esteja sangrando muito. Às vezes, me preocupo em cortar muito fundo e estragar minha mão ou dedos, mas acho que conheço meus limites. Não me corto para morrer, só me corto para ver meu corpo daquele jeito e sentir essa dor. Para ser totalmente honesto, eu costumava me cortar para chamar atenção (eu estava na 6ª série, não julgue), agora eu me corto só por mim.

eu também, eu gosto da automutilação pela dor e pelo sangue, e quanto mais fundo eu acho mais legal, eu me corto por mim, não porque estou mal, sim por diversão e tédio, eu acho legal que tenha um forum pra automutilação.