adoptedpain
Member
- Jun 7, 2025
- 45
First, I do not post or submit this from a place of strength as I'm in a desperate place in my life. I'm 39, have been through multiple hardships on top of hardships as I have nowhere to go and only see self departure as the only way forward. I had long term recovery 8+ years, an extremely brutal broken engagement put me on the street, medical debt due to seeking treatment after this incident, and insurmountable pain due to every aspect of life being uncertain. I do not have any family that can help in any way, so this is a desperate attempt to ask for help if some random person comes from resources and is willing to help another good human. I've helped countless people in my life through personal and professional support helping others get through tough times to reposition them in stable situations. Now, I can't articulate the level of disappointment and problems I'm trying to work through as I've been back on track since February 9, however barely holding a new job while falling apart behind everything to the point where I learned CTB and have hit the wall where this is the only viable option outside. I understand, it's okay. I'm sorry, don't want wishes of I hope it gets better. The hole is deep - i understand most aren't in a position of wealth or resources, however this is a last resort/attempt for support or help to get my life in order. Again, I am sorry - understand nobody is responsible for my situation or actions. I want to live and rebuild even though each day is a struggle in numerous ways. I've written too much, can give context, am not some scamming artist in any sense of the term, reside in New England USA area - can verify this isn't bullshit as I beg with hat in hand to strangers, very humbling and I'm sorry that I am still here let alone asking. Please, I'm sorry, am willing to validate any questions and realize the probability is next to nothing but maybe someone could help as family resources are just passed along. I wish I came from anything or any money to keep helping others but am at the edge. Prayers and hope, but understand my time limit before all comes to a halt. I'll stop bc I am rambling and can answer anything privately. Please be kind, I'm not a bum, have fallen on the hardest of times and without any help or support can honestly say it's okay to be found somewhere which is not fun to express.
