Venting Scars and love

[Endlichkeit]

I want to cut myself, I like scars on my arms and I want more of them, but also don't want any unnecessary attention from other people. For me blood-letting is a ritualistic thing, I enter a special state of mind when I do it. But I also study at university and will have a job in the summer, and people will see these scars and ask stupid questions, like they did many times before. I know, fuck them, fuck their opinion, but I just can't overcome the fear of being judged. This is so childish, I'm probably too old for such thinking.
If I could find a person who could cut my arm, and I would cut theirs, our blood would intermingle, and she would kiss me, and we'd bite each other's lips, and feel this bloody ecstasy together. It'd be a perfect relationship.

 

[ctbcat]

i don't like endorsing this, but you could cut somewhere easier to hide.

i used to and still sometimes do cut my stomach, because it's easiest to hide since it's always under a shirt. noteably, your stomach's skin is tougher to make bleed than your limbs though, since of course all your organs are in there.

 

[Endlichkeit]

i don't like endorsing this, but you could cut somewhere easier to hide.

i used to and still sometimes do cut my stomach, because it's easiest to hide since it's always under a shirt. noteably, your stomach's skin is tougher to make bleed than your limbs though, since of course all your organs are in there.

I used to cut myself on the stomach and legs also, but I like the feeling of bleeding from my arms.