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maxinestirner

maxinestirner

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as per the title, i don't think i have strong enough drugs to cloud my judgement enough to adequately stop myself from "aborting" a method. ideally id like to go by an N2 exit bag but there is always the chance i slip on the bag and then regret half way through. im also worried abt SN which is not nearly as accessible but at least if i did change my mind i'd need to induce vomitting and possibly would still ctb anyways (which idk how hard it is on anti-enemics since i don't have any yet, maybe if i don't do an exit bag ill test it)

is physical restraint an option? or like restricting blood flow to my arms so i can't actually take it off (that is, the exit bag) whether i want to or not?

i don't want to have a say in the matter since i think ill no doubt be incredibly emotionally vulnerable and quick to act when i attempt even tho i know i can't live on like this.

also sorry if this has been asked before, ik my method(s) of choice are relatively common and there are megathreads for increasing success rates. i don't have access to sedatives besides quetiapine and alcohol if you count that and i don't wanna fuck around with benzos since id be able to at most get diazepam if i begged for it and sourcing things "elsewhere" seems to make the process harder
 
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