Hey mom, remember all the times you said it wasn't so bad? Let me be clear, you are insultingly stupid or blind to think that. Dad was a parasitic alcoholic, a liar, possibly a narcissist, who spend my entire childhood making fun of me, or reeking of booze. So much so that your two older children left the house precisely at the moment they knew he would retire. You told me he was an homophobic bastard and a racist. You even told me you had already left him once and you fucking dared to go back to him, which lead to an accident that is me. But are just as bad as he was. First you went back to an abusive husband. Second you told you had to attach your kids to the sofa to have them behave, and you have the audacity of not being ashamed of telling that story. You spent entire days doing your best to avoid him, instead of being a responsible adult and leaving him. During that time you may have no noticed but I needed to be raised properly which you failed to do. It took him threatening you to leave him for good, after I was already broken. You never fucking bothered to realize I had issues, and the fuckin god forsaken day I told you I wanted to kill myself, you had the audacity to complain about me ruining christmas. You can lie all you want, this is what you did. The best time of my life was when I moved away to study, and I didn't talk to you for months. And now that I am back with you, after that somewhat joyful time, I am more than ever sad. You are a failure of a mother, and that entire family, from one end to the other is a failure too.
