saturday

[favouriteworstnight]

i've been struggling since february/march and it feels like a journey. i'm planning to end it on saturday. at first my si was so bad that i thought i would be stuck here forever, but last week i woke up one day and i was so angry at myself, "i wanna die but i'm scared" and i'm feeling more prepared now. i can't guarantee si won't kick in, but i'm posting this because maybe i'll be ashamed if i fail again

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[ChainedCrow]

Good luck on your journey, find the peace u are looking for. Once again good luck and much love hope it will be as painless as it can be

 

[jazzcat621]

I hope whatever choice you make, it brings you relief. Best of luck to you.

 

[AuraByte]

No matter what decision you make, you are not a failure.

 

[favouriteworstnight]

I think I'm going to vent here. Two days left (hopefully). I can't do anything, my depression has gotten so bad that I can't study or enjoy anything. This week, I couldn't even play games or watch some random movie because everything feels awful. I don't need to vent about my shitty life, this has been on my mind for months, I just wanted to say that I'm really drained.

 

[favouriteworstnight]

i was practicing with the belt and i'm scared of applying more pressure, i feel like coughing. but exposure is helping because i couldn't even pick the belt and today i'm experimenting with angles and pressure. i'm starting to wonder if most completed suicides are actually impulsive

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you deserve

 

[themisfell]

i was practicing with the belt and i'm scared of applying more pressure, i feel like coughing. but exposure is helping because i couldn't even pick the belt and today i'm experimenting with angles and pressure. i'm starting to wonder if most completed suicides are actually impulsive

can you elaborate on what you mean by impulsive?

 

[favouriteworstnight]

can you elaborate on what you mean by impulsive?

statistics say people make the decision to end their lives in a few minutes. joiner said that a person needs to have desire for suicide and acquired capability. many people go through physical and emotional pain, so they overcome the survival instinct, but i wonder if they had aborted and failed attempts before succeeding while many here are waiting for the right time

 

[Fresh Soju]

i was practicing with the belt and i'm scared of applying more pressure, i feel like coughing. but exposure is helping because i couldn't even pick the belt and today i'm experimenting with angles and pressure. i'm starting to wonder if most completed suicides are actually impulsive

Been considering doing the same. Get some rope soon and hang it up to where I plan on haning myself, then check it out a few times a day until I feel comfortable with it.
Or do one of those things where you try to do a dry run and accidentally go through with it for real, lol.

Also where is your avatar from if I might ask? ^^