Rubber necking

[Nik]

Own up, who wants to end it all and who is sat eating popcorn?

 

[worldexploder]

I want to end it all. None of this hell is entertaining to me.

 

[WaitingForTheBus]

Yeah, let's do this, I hate popcorn.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I am rubbernecking. I have carefully crafted this facade of being a depressed failure over the last 20 years so that I could join this forum. It's always been a dream of mine to fit in with suicidal people.

 

[Pedrester]

I am rubbernecking. I have carefully crafted this facade of being a depressed failure over the last 20 years so that I could join this forum. It's always been a dream of mine to fit in with suicidal people.

Can you explain that desire more please? I've been suicidal in the past, but I still stick around because these are the people I relate the most with and because I still feel like shit every other day, but in the end I hate myself for liking to be here. I can't imagine why someone would do i, so I'm trying to understand why you do it.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Oh, I was joking, lol. I can't imagine many members are signed up just to watch the drama unfold, but I suppose statistically speaking there must be at least a few. I would think ordinary people would prefer going to the gym, baking gluten-free cookies, or trolling Tinder (or whatever it is normal people do).

 

[Pedrester]

Oh, I was joking, lol. I can't imagine many members are signed up just to watch the drama unfold, but I suppose statistically speaking there must be at least a few. I would think ordinary people would prefer going to the gym, baking gluten-free cookies, or trolling Tinder (or whatever it is normal people do).

I've always been shit at understanding sarcasm anyway :P

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I do want to CTB, but sometimes I am a bit of a people watcher. I'm not here to gawk at anyone by any means, but because I don't have the right opportunity to CTB right now sometimes it does just feel like I'm living vicariously through other people's stories. That probably makes me sound a bit pathetic, but at least I'm owning it? Haha..

 

[weedoge]

I've always been shit at understanding sarcasm anyway :P

On one hand I understood the sarcasm but on the other I invoke https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Poe's_law whenever you misunderstand sarcasm and someone gets rude about it :')

On the topic, I kinda get paranoid and assume there are a lot of people here like that are faking their identities for some reason or another, but I think that's more to do with my mental state than actual truth, who knows.

 

[The Blackangel]

I want to die, but there's one problem. I'm a chickenshit. I don't like the idea that that's it and there's nothing next, so I'm scared to death (no pun intended) of actually doing it. If someone was to murder me, then ok. I have my beliefs on the afterlife, but I'm still scared as hell to say fuck it all and just cap myself. Granted I have tried about literally 30-40 times. Every time I tried to hang myself the fucking rope would break. When I tried chain, I kept hitting the floor no matter how much I tried to shorten it. I even stuck a shotgun in my mouth but the fucker wouldn't fire. So I have finally realized that I'm such a fucking failure that I can't even kill myself successfully. LOSER COMING THROUGH!!!

 

[The Blackangel]

I'm sure there's a person or two here that are trying to fight suicide and telling people that "someone loves you", "you're worth more than that", and some other bullshit. But some of us aren't in that fucking boat. When your uncle tries to kill you when you're two years old and your father hits you in the head with a board afterward for "being a pussy", you realize that there is no such thing as love. It is fucking non existent.

 

[Throwaway563078]

I'm sure there's a person or two here that are trying to fight suicide and telling people that "someone loves you", "you're worth more than that", and some other bullshit. But some of us aren't in that fucking boat. When your uncle tries to kill you when you're two years old and your father hits you in the head with a board afterward for "being a pussy", you realize that there is no such thing as love. It is fucking non existent.

So glad haven't come across those people here

 

[The Blackangel]

So glad haven't come across those people here

So am I. There are more than enough lover dovey sites and forums on the net. Those people need to stay the fuck off here. If any of us wanted to talk to them, we would be at their board. Not here.