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Arewethereyet
New Member
- Oct 1, 2020
- 3
Well I fucked up and I'm now on day 5(?) in the psych ward.
I'd tried for days to hang myself successfully, reading threads here, on other sites, watching videos, but couldn't get past the insticts kicking in a making me release the pressure.
I'd decided ages ago I wanted to do a partial suspension as it's meant to be less painful. I had tried and tried to do it in a somewhat kneeling way as it seemed the less scary, but nothing, i never went unconscious.
Finally, last week, I decided to try it with my legs in front of me. I don't remember anything else until I woke up on my floor surrounded by people. I just remember screaming in terror, my vision was nearly gone and no one could understand what i was saying. Someone had pulled me down. I'm disappointed, but it sounded like they got me just in time. They said i was blue and my body was rigid. Apparently i was also having seizures and foaming at the mouth when i was taken down.
The skin on my chest is numb due to ligature damage and i have some bruises on my neck. My tounge is all bitten up. But physically im ok otherwise.
I cant believe, the one time I got it 'right' and went unconcious, I was found.
Moral of the story, don't try and hang yourself if there's a chance someone will find you during. I got lucky that I was found no later as I couldve been a vegetable.
I'd tried for days to hang myself successfully, reading threads here, on other sites, watching videos, but couldn't get past the insticts kicking in a making me release the pressure.
I'd decided ages ago I wanted to do a partial suspension as it's meant to be less painful. I had tried and tried to do it in a somewhat kneeling way as it seemed the less scary, but nothing, i never went unconscious.
Finally, last week, I decided to try it with my legs in front of me. I don't remember anything else until I woke up on my floor surrounded by people. I just remember screaming in terror, my vision was nearly gone and no one could understand what i was saying. Someone had pulled me down. I'm disappointed, but it sounded like they got me just in time. They said i was blue and my body was rigid. Apparently i was also having seizures and foaming at the mouth when i was taken down.
The skin on my chest is numb due to ligature damage and i have some bruises on my neck. My tounge is all bitten up. But physically im ok otherwise.
I cant believe, the one time I got it 'right' and went unconcious, I was found.
Moral of the story, don't try and hang yourself if there's a chance someone will find you during. I got lucky that I was found no later as I couldve been a vegetable.