Reincarnation is something that has always stuck with me.
Incidentally I actually still remember how my previous life ended
Its strange that ever since i was a child, for some reason i was able
to hold onto this memory. Back in 2019, thanks to google maps.
I actually found the location of where this dream came from
and i went and camped in a tent at that site.
And my god that was probably the strangest night i have ever had.
Im sorry to hear about the brain damage.
Personally i carry some physical damage
and i am now waiting on surgery for it to be fixed.
and the crazy thing is the sick bastards
want me to go back on the meds which caused this damage
but going back on the meds is only going to make the damage worse.
There is a video on youtube of gradmaster wolf.
his a bit out there, but watching his video
calmed my anxiety about coming back
for more suffering.
Honestly if reincarnation is real.
Then each life is about a lesson
and learning. so even if i do CTB
Then I think i should first reflect on my life
and see the lessons i learned.
so that if i do come back,.
i will be better prepared to deal with peoples shit
and if i don't come back, then maybe i will finally be at peace.
I'm afraid of killing myself, mainly because that I don't know what kind of life I will get next time.
What if I'll be born as an autistic kid, or a woman? I can't imagine myself being a girl, omg.
or a woman. lol this made me laugh. and believe me. 100% your right in wanting to avoid being a women. society treats women very poorly.
After I die, I'll let you know
Iv always had this fantasy,
that i would put all the information i want my next life to know in a book, or on a USB key or something and bury it in a time capsule. or even spend whatever money i have on a bar of gold.
and bury that in the time capsule. and then recite every day the location of that time capsule, so that my next life may be able to remember the co ordinations.
but eventually i learned that this type of thinking means i'm not ready o CTB.
I'm still holing onto all he negative experiences i have endured in this life
and personally i don't want to CTB carrying pain and suffering.