What are your ages on here and your biggest regrets in life :(
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ADBoy777
Student
- May 16, 2024
- 183
22
My biggest regret was not finishing the military training It would have given me an easy access to guns
SomewhatLoved
I now know the depths I reach are limitless
- Apr 12, 2023
- 448
20, almost 21.
I don't think I really have an instance of a "big" single action or moment I regret not making a different decision in. I feel like I've never really made any sort of grandiose mistake, but I've definitely had a series of smaller ones that have just made my life worse piece by piece. If I had to pick one thing it would probably be not going to my dad or the police when my brother assaulted me. I only told my mom and she didn't really do anything. My brother later attempted suicide, and I think if I had called somebody else he may have been forced to confront his mental health issues and may have gotten better (he was abusing his meds at the time and had just stopped taking everything cold-turkey, resulting in him being in an unstable state).
ADBoy777
Student
- May 16, 2024
- 183
Nah I'm studying software Engineering in uni. Trying to get a gun but it's not easy
LastNite
Hello World
- Mar 31, 2025
- 625
You won't have any luck getting one. There's three ways to get it:
1. Get it legally (wont work if u got history with mental illness or other stuff)
2. 3d print one
3. buy it illegally (very unlikely to find someone legit)
Just OD it's much better than guns and easier to get a good fast drug.
You don't news gun to ctb you can jump in front of a fast moving train
You can share with me. We all are on the same boat here
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,735
ADBoy777
Student
- May 16, 2024
- 183
I'm trying to get it illegally rn I know someone that can get it pretty easily I just hope he will agree to purchase it for me. I don't mind give him even 20 grands for it tho I would but it in any price
LastNite
Hello World
- Mar 31, 2025
- 625
Well good luck with that dont get ripped off illegal handguns such as the Glock shouldn't cost anything above 3k
Andrew10
Student
- May 6, 2023
- 112
20, I would have regrets if the consequences were for my actions but instead I was used as a cover so others could commit atrocities and I had to bear the consequences and blame for things I didn't even do. My only regret is that I exist. I wish I hadn't survived my CTB attempts years ago.Last edited:
lamy's sacred sleep
what's a way to just be competent
- Nov 22, 2024
- 1,512
14+4
My biggest regret is probably not getting actual help for my mental health until honestly way too late.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 47,963
My regret was being forced into this torturous, futile existence in the first place and the fact that this existence was imposed when never suffering at all was perfection is the most terrible dreadful tragedy to me, I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to me existence is an abomination. I always suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence so cruelly denied the option of a peaceful, guaranteed death as all I want is to never exist ever again, I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age with no limit as to how much they can suffer, I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I see existence itself as the true problem.
ADBoy777
Student
- May 16, 2024
- 183
Wow you are a jew? Sorry I don't want to sound creepy it but I never met one
Sadly it's impossible to have kids in today's super expensive world
Andrew10
Student
- May 6, 2023
- 112
I could explain a whole list in detail but since I'm not in the mood and I don't think this is the right space, I'm only going to tell you three examples that are still in my head: former classmates of mine used my identity to catfish different girls on social media, even doing it with a girl from my school and because of that I gained a reputation as a sick stalker for something I didn't even do, then this girl leaked my information on the internet and I was cyberbullied on WhatsApp by unknown numbers, receiving calls from strangers and mockery for 2 years, and then they used my identity again happened to leak nudes from a girl with whom I barely had any contact and never spoke. These are just 3 examples, but these are the ones I remember most every time I remember my teenage years.Last edited:
You should feel happy as you must be very handsome man that they catfish by using your photos. Although I can't judge as I was never a victim of online bulling and harrasment so I don't know what it is
Andrew10
Student
- May 6, 2023
- 112
Thanks for the support but I don't consider myself very attractive, I understand your message and your intentions of support but it is different in this context, they did it with very bad intentions and wanting to hurt me for their own entertainment, I was always a rejected and used as an entertainment circus for many, I was a punching bag of relief for others and I received constant mockery. It hurt a little what they did but what hurt me the most was one of those responsible who caused all this was an old great friend of mine to whom I told my problems with confidence, I already had the suspicion that there could be betrayal but I never imagined that it would go so far and that it would be from a person that in the past I came to appreciate almost as a brother. Still, thank you, I appreciate and value the intention too much and that means a lot to me ♥.
I send you a big hug from wherever you are and lots of support on your way too. Peace!
Hi! Do you think your acquaintance could be interested in helping others? Happy to pay $$, if you are able to connect. Thanks so much!!
Thomas Rekowicz
Member
- Mar 10, 2025
- 67
25 my biggest regret is using porn as a stimulant so i can work and learn more IT really worked for me since i was 12 i used dopamine from IT to overcome my limits i achieved many academic succeses (3 scholarships and many more) even become member of Polish Writers Union but i suffer from severe depression and personality disorders now IT was not worth all this pain and anxiety. Do not use porn IT is a poison for brain in long run .29m, I regret getting severely injured 5 month ago from running in the dark. It led to a sequence of events that ruined my health and my life. My only choice is ctb now. All for nothing.
IhatethislifeXD
New Member
- Apr 10, 2025
- 4
Early 20s
Bad uni choice is a big regret for me because I thought I would be interested in the major I would study but it turns out that I hate it and n also it made me lonelier more than ever before. I was also unable to connect with people and make friends in this new place despite trying multiple times to fit in. Furthermore I dont know what I want to do in life, I am not really interested in anything and I dont have goals.
Thats not all of my regrets but its definitely one of them.
Same I also suffer from porn addiction although I didn't achieve anything in my life either unlike you
I didn't even go to any university. I just sloth around
Im 21. I cant decide if my biggest regret is what I did to hurt my best friend so badly before we fell out, or not opening the messages he sent me applogizing and trying to reconnect the week before he killed himself. maybe its not kms back when i was 18 and planning to do it together with him.
ADBoy777
Student
- May 16, 2024
- 183
I hope he will help me if he would I can try help you too
worldclass_sinner
Trying to Get to Heaven Before They Close the Door
- Mar 15, 2025
- 24
20 , Well every day is a regret for me but I wish I had ended my life earlier, it's been hell.
Szarur-abi
I Useless dipsh*t I
- Apr 25, 2024
- 80
Recently turned 23, wish i could achieve anything and not be useless piece of shit, i'm just breathing piece of garbage, air is a big waste for me. Everyone tries their best for me but i keep dissapointing everyone. They expect me to pass the uni after failing it year ago but honestly it goes too fucking quickly, its already two months before final exams like when the fuck did it happened. Im not showing to anyone but i feel like im falling apart the more i think about my state, other than studies i work security job in the museum, its not bad just it doesnt give any perspectives but i worked as a cashier once on gas station and it was a nightmare so im glad i have atleast not so stressful job. Im liked here tho, i try to be nice and it pays off a bit. I just wished i could get clear carrer path before me with bright (or any) perspectives but i think it will only get worse from there.
I have suicide kit ready since march (SN, Meto, Painkillers and hydroxyzine), so im ready to go whenever i feel like it, its not yet thoSimilar threads
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