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trs

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Jun 29, 2024
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Hi, I'm T.
I'm middle aged and looking to connect with others around this age or a bit younger or a bit older, or those who may be younger and feel that they fit in with people who were born several years (or decades) before they were.
I'd really like to connect with people who may feel they had at one point been driven to think about or try to commit suicide because of a horrible change in life circumstances which suddenly occurred later in life and/or who have very severe physical issues which unexpectedly got worse later in life.
My greatest interest is the intersection of spirituality and the unseen with our physical lives and with the death experience. I like to focus discussing these issues as a way to expand consciousness and give greater perspective to life and death, and to try to mitigate the tremendous suffering and angst inherent in suddenly or progressively worsening physical issues or life circumstances and the uncertainty and angst involved in death, and the death and crossing over process, and life on the other side.
I find focusing on these things helps distract me from suffering, gives me some sense of meaning (via expanding my consciousness) in the otherwise emptiness of how life is now, and gives me a sense of helping to expand other people's consciousness by sharing what I know.
I positively acknowledge everyone who is trying to continue forward in the face of very difficult, traumatic circumstances, and who choose to focus on there being a return to home and peace at the end of the journey instead of hoping there will be nothing at the end of life.
Please reply or message me if you can relate.
Best to you,
T.
34F from the Bay Area, California here. Looking for local people to hang out and discuss mental health issues. Perhaps sitting in the park and chatting about our struggles... it would be good for me to go outside more. Gender and age do not matter. I don't have many hobbies or interests left due to how severe my depression is. I basically just binge TV shows/movies in between work and sleep, that's about it for right now.
I'm in the opposite end of the state, but if I was in your end I'd be happy to go outside too, as I agree about how important that is.
 
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trs

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Jun 29, 2024
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Not sure if I have the living in me, but I know right now I don't have the dying in me. So since I'm stuck here for until my life gets worse again, I wouldn't mind a solution to my crippling isolation. I do still want to live though, I just don't see how its going to work out. But I think if there's one thing that might help, it would be someone I can connect with. So.. anyone wanna be my friend?

I'm a 31yo Trans Woman from the Mid Atlantic region of USA. I'm disabled with Crohn's Disease, Tendinitis, and various mental disabilities. I come from a very toxic family and that has affected me in a lot of ways. I've never really been able to connect with anyone so I don't even know if this will work, but I need someone in my life. I'm more-or-less friendly, but I am very distant, and tend to worry too much about bothering other people. I want to work on these things but I just wanted to be upfront about it.

I like cycling, math rock, alt/indie Japanese music, smoking weed, Warhammer, Old School RuneScape, animals, cuddles, baking, and coming up with elaborate ideas for things in my head.

I'd love someone that likes to talk a lot. My brain is on fire and I would love someone to listen to until the flames stop. I'd like to watch TV/Movies together. I'm up to play any games my Tendinitis allows (like OSRS), but I'm also up to watch you play videos games. I'd love someone to share music with. I've been waiting my whole life for someone to share my ideas for stories and things with. And I'd like someone to care for, and be cared for by.

Also I'd really like someone who identifies as at least a little "trashy". I spent my childhood looking at porn. My adulthood doing drugs. And for most of my life I was taught toxic=good. I feel a lot more comfortable around people that are a little 'rough around the edges', not to reinforce any of that toxicity, but just to have someone that I can relate to with it.

Ultimately... I've never gotten close to anyone before.. but I'd really like to learn how, if anyone wants to be a part of that.

DM me if you're interested in a chat or a playdate!
@trashprincess just want to say I like how you put this "Not sure if I have the living in me, but I know right now I don't have the dying in me." I've found myself in the exact same place.
 
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pain6batch9

pain6batch9

Chronic
Aug 25, 2024
184
If you throw out a line, I'll reply, but be patient because the OCD has to work through its cycle first. There's a crass joke about looking for someone more messed up than me, but having thought about it, I won't make that comparison. Instead, just think of your finger as a finger, and my mind as a jar of that slime you used to play with as a kid.
 
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nembutal

nembutal

everything will be okay in the end
Jul 14, 2022
334
21 NYC. still feeding my survival instinct although i am drafting notes more than usual. i have a heroin addiction and an abusive family. i am a SW. most of my reasoning stems from illogical BPD nonsense but i truly have no one to speak to most days.

i like anime, dumpster diving/illegalism, "street" fashion, furries, my little pony, doodling. currently numbing with my letterboxd film watchlist and podcasts like swindled and lpotl. i have a cat named juju.

i am interested in speaking to someone that has the capacity to view suicide from a critical standpoint and can acknowledge its cons. i try to approach my reasoning for suicide from a bystanders perspective in an attempt to understand where the kinks of my logic are found in order to help myself recover. please no hardcore antinatalists or those with a victim mentality.
 
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La Lorona

La Lorona

Member
Aug 29, 2024
9
Hellooooooooooo everyone. Since I've decided to try to focus mostly on recovery I was wondering if there is someone out there who's also focused on that and maybe wants to share our achievements/daily happenings with each other? I'd love to make a friend :) I'm 19F and you can call me dirt for now! We can talk about anything honestly. I personally like creativity, spirituality, watching movies, spending time around animals and cooking. I'm trying to get more into other interests/hobbies so if you have a niche interest please tell me about it! :))))
Hi 🖤 I'd like to meet you to talk about recovery and stuff, I think we have similar interests 🖤You can contact me in private chat
 
pone

pone

Materialism as a means to an end
Dec 19, 2023
16
19M

Looking for a recovery partner, preferably similar in age (18-25), sadly i don't have much free time, but i"ll try my best to answer at least within a day, we can talk about hobbies, mangas, and games too.

I like to know about others so please feel free to pm and talk with me.
 
sesamecat

sesamecat

Member
Sep 2, 2024
10
hullo i'm 24, genderfluid and queer, just looking for friends and people to talk to who share similar experiences.

feeling hopeless and the friends in my life are people who i am eternally grateful for but perhaps do not understand my struggles as deeply as i would like.
 
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Ms.Melancholy

Ms.Melancholy

I used to be indifferent, now I just wanna go home
Sep 5, 2024
12
20 AMAB NB / MtF, from Romania

Looking for anyone around my age (<25) to talk and listen to, preferably someone also queer.

I used to like gaming, cycling, working out, 3D art, among other stuff. In the process of rediscovering myself and my interests.

PM for discord, we can talk about anything and take it from there.
 
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Glenferd666

Glenferd666

Member
Aug 23, 2024
51
20 AMAB NB / MtF, from Romania

Looking for anyone around my age (<25) to talk and listen to, preferably someone also queer.

I used to like gaming, cycling, working out, 3D art, among other stuff. In the process of rediscovering myself and my interests.

PM for discord, we can talk about anything and take it from there.
You got pms closed
 
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BlackCatCrossing

BlackCatCrossing

Member
Aug 27, 2024
40
Hi 🖤 I'd like to meet you to talk about recovery and stuff, I think we have similar interests 🖤You can contact me in private chat
Hi La Lorona 🖤🌸 I thought I might reach out to you. See if we may be able to connect. About me: I am older (39, F.) so if that's too up there for you no worries! ~
I like what you said about daily accomplishments and check-ins. It's the little things. Interests are: cottage core, interior design, pen pals, spirituality, health, reading, skincare, and more
30's F Ireland, trying so hard to remain positive and hold onto my life. I've been trying to take things day by day - literally hour by hour sometimes. I'd love to chat to anyone to share thoughts, feelings, experiences etc and hopefully we could be a support to each other
30's F Ireland, trying so hard to remain positive and hold onto my life. I've been trying to take things day by day - literally hour by hour sometimes. I'd love to chat to anyone to share thoughts, feelings, experiences etc and hopefully we could be a support to each other
30's, F. California. I'm interested in forming a connection where we have daily accomplishments/check-ins. I am recovering from so much and looking for others to help boost through their day. When functional I enjoy interior design, reading, health, animals and more 💌
Hellooooooooooo everyone. Since I've decided to try to focus mostly on recovery I was wondering if there is someone out there who's also focused on that and maybe wants to share our achievements/daily happenings with each other? I'd love to make a friend :) I'm 19F and you can call me dirt for now! We can talk about anything honestly. I personally like creativity, spirituality, watching movies, spending time around animals and cooking. I'm trying to get more into other interests/hobbies so if you have a niche interest please tell me about it! :))))
I have a niche hobby to tell you about that you might enjoy. 🖤💌 At the very least I think you will like hearing about it. Also love the idea of daily accomplishments and happenings sharing. I'm 39 F. from CA if you want to reach out. ❤️
 
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amnesia999

amnesia999

Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
Jun 30, 2024
217
What I'm looking for is a long shot, I'm interested in somebody I could actually meet IRL for a beer or a coffee after work and talk to. Or do stuff on the weekend. I know that's a hard ask to make. I'd want to know that anybody who did this was able to be trusted, and I'm sure it would be the same the other way around. But it doesn't hurt to ask. It could certainly start as messaging back and forth.

Male, 60, Pacific Northwest, USA.
 
itswhatits

itswhatits

it won't give up, it wants me dead
Sep 12, 2024
10
26M

Been fighting this shit for the past 10 years, can't do it alone anymore, burnt out most of my family and friends, to where they don't really want to help me with my shit anymore. Probably autistic? Everybody insists I come off that way. idk.
 
mango-meridian

mango-meridian

Member
Apr 5, 2024
60
I'm looking for someone that can be mutually supportive with me not just in recovering but also in building actual happiness and meaning. Help me to remember what my goals are and why I care about them and I will do the same for you!

To be clear, I want platonic relationships/intimacy only. I have enough sexual/romantic trauma and don't want to risk getting any more of that right now. I'm a trans woman from Western USA and if we happen to live nearby I am open to meeting up as well. I like in-person the best but online is great too.

Thanks!
 
becfr0g

becfr0g

cruel to keep living, burdensome to die
Sep 30, 2024
10
Im 18F from the UK who has only a few GCSEs, no ALevels. My friends and sister have all left to go to university, and i am left behind with suicidal thoughts but the intention to continue living.

Ive figured out that i need to do something to make this life tolerable, which led me to needing a decently interesting job with good pay, and im not yet decided but im leaning towards forensic sciences or forensic psychology, as i am a little fascinated by all that. I know itll be a long road to get there, but right now im in a ditch next to a dumpster, 50 miles away from any roads.

What im looking for is anybody from the UK who is either going through the sameish thing with the whole a levels thing, or who can be a solid presence in my life (online or in person) who can just be there with me.

This post is all self centered but know that i also want to help somebody else, i want to work together and help each other. I want to be there for someone just as someone is there for me.

Please reach out if you are interested OR if you arent interested but have any advice or comments or anything at all, this is all in the idea stage still! Thanks
 
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unwellalways

New Member
Jul 2, 2024
1
Hi, 23F, Gothenburg, Sweden

still on the fence about the whole life and death thing. my life fell apart this past year due to psychosis. relatively im doing well and im studying a bit and have friends and trying to live a life. I think im looking to feel less alone, maybe there's someone from the same city on here? Also, i have a long term relationship of many years so please don't be weird 😅
 
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