Recover failed?

[XKZyn]

I was free from cutting for a year or so but tonight I ended up cutting again, nothing too bad just more like scratches than anything... Now I feel this itch to see my blood like I used to when I would cut a lot. I didn't see blood flowing down my arm and it's making me feel like an addict the way I'm itching to go deeper to see my blood, watching it flow just to do it again. A part of me realizes how sick this is but the sickly part of me missed the pain and the blood. My blade of choice is dull and I'm just idk. A lot of things. I do know I want to go deeper, I've always used the end of the blade for cutting idk if you have to use the actual blade part or not I've always done the ends since I was a teen. Idk I'm overwhelmed, frustrated, lonesome, and fearful of what I may have just let back into my life.

 

[Dot]

Wld accessng sme SH spport hlp

Slf cn lnk an orgnsatn tht spports ppl tht SH if u relpse

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

There are ups and downs in the recovery journey. That does not mean your recovery ended up in a failure. It's ok to take time to get better. Sending a big hug