Venting reasons to go on running thin

[Rikqkard]

.All my usual coping strategies are starting to completely fail me. I can't stomach mushrooms anymore and just always throw them up. Music isn't making me happy anymore. Sex is something I don't really want now, though I still have it given the opportunity, I find most video games boring. Camping is actually still pretty great but I don't get to very often especially since I am 23 and have a full time job and school. Anime and TV just aren't as good. Webnovels are less interesting now. Manga and manwha and all those just aren't hitting like they used to. But I can't go through with it until after this damned wedding then Christmas is right around the corner and I don't want to make it bad for my family to celebrate forever. Just, fuck this, music, webnovels, and sex were pretty much all that was keeping me generally ok. I don't even need a relationship to get sex even tho I'm a lover boy at heart, or lover thing since gender is weird these days??? But I just don't desire it anymore even though I can get it super easily. IDK what to do, I know how I am gonna do it and when, just not where since I don't want to ruin the house for my parents. It will probably be out in the woods somewhere if anyone has any recommends for parks in Texas or surrounding states, maybe even anywhere depending , not giving a specific spot for obvious reasons but hey. I'm gonna use SN so there is no chance I'll make it if I'm in the middle of nowhere.