Reason for suicide

[Pardoe84]

What is your reason, why you want to do suicide?

 

[Csmith8827]

I live in a matrix/Dreamworld and there aren't any other real people that exist in my world. It's just me and a bunch of NPC's. That's an absurd world to live in.

 

[FuneralCry]

Because existence is something that doesn't really appeal to me in any way, existence is something harmful, futile and undesirable, no matter what I will always wish for the permanent escape and relief from all suffering.

In this dreadful reality, I see death as certainly being the only relief and I think that suicide is the best way to die as it's on our own terms, I could never wish to be tortured by old age which is all that existence leads to, we are all just waiting around to die.

 

[timetodie24]

I don't get anything or want anything out of life. I feel intense hatred for myself everyday that I can't handle anymore. I'll never fit into this world and I just don't get the point in life. I'm a huge burden on those around me too.

 

[ctb-soon]

It's getting to be the time to go.

 

[farfetchedotters]

I want to feel at peace finally. Without worries, without boundaries.

 

[hamtaro]

More threads w/ same question:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/what-has-lead-you-to-contemplate-suicide.124139/


https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/why-ctb-did-you-really-try-get-help-ctb-only-thing-left-now-what-is-the-main-reason-and-not-because-i-hate-myself-what-happened-changed.112131/

So like, who else wants to die??

Fer real though. I wanna die so bad. My life just sucks. Why do you want to die??

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[josephk]

I dont Have the right kind of brain. I don't enjoy life & never will no matter what good comes my way. I'm better off out of it

 

[sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft]

There are many pretty hollow reasons for me such as looks or home country regime or bullying or friends/family problems
But in the end, I don't think there is a valid reason. Like that one single thing/thought/event that permits me to live happily and leads to suicidal thoughts, gestures or attempts. And probably it isn't even the sum of everything I listed
Some years ago life just started feeling different. Yes, some shit happened to me over the course of years, but it never was critically bad as in other people's cases. My life is pretty good. And most of the time I even feel good
But no matter how I feel, no matter what good events happen in my life, I want to end myself. No reason. Even when I feel great about life I want it to end. It of course intensifies when bad stuff happens, but the feeling never leaves me and is always decently strong. to be honest I don't think there is a rational reason behind my wish to ctb. I just feel like I'm not suited for this world. Like an alien surrounded by normal humans. Or like you feel when you know you're in a dream and it's not your real world. Even though good stuff happens to me once in a while, this just isn't my world. Like I am destined to kms, like some higher power sends me signs that instruct me to do it. Lmao it sounds so dumb when I type it out I'm sorry
I haven't been diagnosed with anything in particular yet, just "some endogenous disorder" (tho I've been seeing my current psychiatrist for over a year now ), hope to get my diagnosis some time soon if I don't die lol
I know that it's different for everyone. But I feel that there are at least some people who feel the same as me

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

Loss of my father, intense self-loathing, own dumbness, ugliness, lack of sense of belonging, inability to achieve anything in life, unwillingness to feel the pain of loss again, betrayal by people I loved, absense of a perosn who's not my mom who can and will accept and love me for who I am

 

[Grimscribe]

I don't see a reason to keep living.