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Reason for not dying?
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The only two reasons of why i dont want to die now is because i dont want the love that i feel to my partner to vanished because ill be dead and im waiting for tv shows to end.
What are your reasons?
my favorite artists, and the beautiful memories they brought me. I don't want my love and my memories to fade away. also I'd like to be around to see what they'll do in the future. I know I'm not worthy of it though, because I'm not working on my own future. and I'll need to gather the courage and last bit of dignity to ctb soon. hopefully SI won't stop me. I hope I can take my love and my memories, and perhaps live beautiful moments again somehow
I don't really have a reason. I'm only here because suicide methods are almost impossible for me to do. If I had access to a button that would immediately kill me, I'd press it but no such button exists in reality
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In my case I do want to not exist, in fact I wish I never existed at all, in my case I'd always prefer to be eternally unaware, I have no interest in being burdened with something so hellish and harmful as human existence. I'm only still trapped in this undesirable existence as I'd fear trying to die potentially going wrong and leading to way worse suffering as a result as well as just suicide methods being inaccessible in general, I despise this cruel and hellish world where suicide isn't accepted as a valid option.
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For me i have a sibling that I don't want to hurt if I CTB, our family has already been through enough as it is and ik he cares about me. And I just wanna be jacked before I CTB lol
Pretty much as everyone else describes. 1. SI 2. Fam 3. Cats 4. Lack of asscessable methods and 5. Me being a bitch
I think I've got a hella lot more reasons just as I also got a shit ton reason for wanting to commit but this is all that really comes to mind for now.
Hurting so much my parents and my brother. Even though I have a very difficult relationship/ past with them that is still what's stopping me. Super annoying tbh because if it wasn't for that for sure I would be able to leave now.
My reasons are the pain that i self inflict on myself. (which the method for me is a shotgun) How i would be afraid, how i would end up if i do survive it (which is very horrific in the way of ending up disfigured like that one Russian guy)
And also because... I don't where i be going after death.. And it makes me dread about going through with it because far as i know, there's no positive outcome after taking your life, you would instead suffer and face consequences and no religion allows such act to be okay...
Certainly if i were to daydream where i be at in death
It'll either be me in a complete void of nothing or some place that doesn't make me feel harm ..
I would say my number one reason is I have no idea how to do it and I'm terrified to feel pain or the physical effects of failure that may come with it. But I'm also holding out for new albums I enjoy.
Major Ones:
(As others said) Becoming a vegetable and for me I'd say choosing to CBT without realising that I had potential even just to live alone forever and enjoy my small things. Minor Ones:
Not being able to play games anymore (IK it sounds stupid like this but they really are one of the only few things keeping me alive/sane) and leaving my younger brothers and cousins abruptly.
… parents .. they're old & need my help to pay bills online, fill out forms, troubleshoot the internet/tv/anything really & too many people at work know that I exist so I would be topic of conversation & that's embarrassing & I hate attention (even though I'd be dead)
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