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catotoctb

catotoctb

Member
Aug 27, 2023
43
The only two reasons of why i dont want to die now is because i dont want the love that i feel to my partner to vanished because ill be dead and im waiting for tv shows to end.
What are your reasons?
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Afraid of becoming a vegetable
 
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halleyscomet

halleyscomet

halley
Mar 26, 2024
307
I'm scared and tired, I'm too lazy to act it out.

I also want to be loved so badly and if I die I'll never be able to be held again.
 
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tbroken

tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
690
I want to be in complete shape and control before ctbing, i don't want to fail and i wont.
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

Wizard
Oct 28, 2021
616
Pets. That's it. They're almost done, and so will I be.
 
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lnlybnny

Mage
Jan 25, 2024
545
my favorite artists, and the beautiful memories they brought me. I don't want my love and my memories to fade away. also I'd like to be around to see what they'll do in the future. I know I'm not worthy of it though, because I'm not working on my own future. and I'll need to gather the courage and last bit of dignity to ctb soon. hopefully SI won't stop me. I hope I can take my love and my memories, and perhaps live beautiful moments again somehow
 
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xinino

xinino

Anti humanist
Mar 31, 2024
397
To be like her.
 

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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I don't really have a reason. I'm only here because suicide methods are almost impossible for me to do. If I had access to a button that would immediately kill me, I'd press it but no such button exists in reality
 
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lita-lassi

lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
614
my dads still around and it would be really really hard on him if i did it
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
453
My beautiful affectionate cats still keep me going. They are the only ones who love me.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
lack of a peaceful method that's all
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,177
In my case I do want to not exist, in fact I wish I never existed at all, in my case I'd always prefer to be eternally unaware, I have no interest in being burdened with something so hellish and harmful as human existence. I'm only still trapped in this undesirable existence as I'd fear trying to die potentially going wrong and leading to way worse suffering as a result as well as just suicide methods being inaccessible in general, I despise this cruel and hellish world where suicide isn't accepted as a valid option.
 
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defunkt

defunkt

Member
Apr 10, 2024
25
In the words of one of my favorite artists

Too lazy for suicide
I just watch the days pass hoping to die

That's pretty much it lol I am so numb inside and then the lack of viable options in my region and my financial situation.

Other than that I used to have a dog but he lives with my brother now cause my apartment doesn't allow dogs.

It was the only soul that I actually felt a connection to that was sincere.

Other than that I m not even going to bother with a note I'm so lonely I guess
 
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jujujr

jujujr

Member
Oct 29, 2023
49
For me i have a sibling that I don't want to hurt if I CTB, our family has already been through enough as it is and ik he cares about me. And I just wanna be jacked before I CTB lol
 
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
Pets, mother, SI.
 
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NullSz00

NullSz00

Full-Swing Sayonara
Feb 22, 2024
217
Mostly SI, also thinking how would other people feel about it.
 
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Helvete

Helvete

Member
Apr 9, 2024
82
twin sister. cant let her go through this world alone
 
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Dliena

Dliena

𝚂𝚂 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝙽𝚘. 43,53?
Dec 22, 2023
1,888
Pretty much as everyone else describes. 1. SI 2. Fam 3. Cats 4. Lack of asscessable methods and 5. Me being a bitch

I think I've got a hella lot more reasons just as I also got a shit ton reason for wanting to commit but this is all that really comes to mind for now.
 
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idreamofwires

idreamofwires

Member
Apr 20, 2024
8
Laziness. There's a bridge I want to jump from but I can't even be bothered to leave the house.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
384
Hurting so much my parents and my brother. Even though I have a very difficult relationship/ past with them that is still what's stopping me. Super annoying tbh because if it wasn't for that for sure I would be able to leave now.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Only reason for not dying right now is that I'm finishing up unfinished business first. When that's done, I'm done.
 
grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
164
My reasons are the pain that i self inflict on myself. (which the method for me is a shotgun) How i would be afraid, how i would end up if i do survive it (which is very horrific in the way of ending up disfigured like that one Russian guy)

And also because... I don't where i be going after death.. And it makes me dread about going through with it because far as i know, there's no positive outcome after taking your life, you would instead suffer and face consequences and no religion allows such act to be okay...

Certainly if i were to daydream where i be at in death

It'll either be me in a complete void of nothing or some place that doesn't make me feel harm ..
 
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FrownyFace

FrownyFace

Is it suicide or sabotage you think
May 15, 2024
42
I would say my number one reason is I have no idea how to do it and I'm terrified to feel pain or the physical effects of failure that may come with it. But I'm also holding out for new albums I enjoy.
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks « ❤️‍🩹 »
Nov 13, 2023
583
Major Ones:
(As others said) Becoming a vegetable and for me I'd say choosing to CBT without realising that I had potential even just to live alone forever and enjoy my small things.
Minor Ones:
Not being able to play games anymore (IK it sounds stupid like this but they really are one of the only few things keeping me alive/sane) and leaving my younger brothers and cousins abruptly.
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
314
living life is easier than dying

as much as life might suck, it ain't easy to catch the bus and i'm sure that we can all agree on that

and another reason is that you'll be missing out on the things that you might still enjoy

can be small things like videogames or whatever u do and enjoy in life
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,197
I don't know why I'm still here aside from SI.
 
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misguidedsatanist69

misguidedsatanist69

New Member
Sep 1, 2020
3
… parents .. they're old & need my help to pay bills online, fill out forms, troubleshoot the internet/tv/anything really & too many people at work know that I exist so I would be topic of conversation & that's embarrassing & I hate attention (even though I'd be dead)
 
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Randy Savage

Randy Savage

“Macho Man”
Jul 23, 2024
47
The only things keeping me alive are survival instinct, drugs, and cute cats
 
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