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dontwakeme

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Aug 10, 2025
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I have decided to do this at an unknown date.
Will this work? How will it make me feel?

My method idea is this:
- Alcohol (probably spirits with mixer, 20% or more, 700ml)
- pregabalin 3,00mg (75mg × 40)

- diazepam 50mg (5mg × 10 to aid my distress)
- Cyclizine 150mg (50mg × 3 to help with nausea)
- Esomeprazole 160mg (40mg × 4 to help with stomach discomfort)

Will the stomach tablets help? And should I add more alcohol and/or pregabalin?
 
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dontwakeme

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Aug 10, 2025
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Hmm okay I could definitely take more pregabalin than that and more diazepam. I could take idk 500 75mg tablets with 1L 30% Alcohol mixed with 200 5mg diazepam tablets and then take the PPI and anti-emetic to make it sliiiightly less hellish. I could include a small dose of oxy (idk maybe 40mg) and take 50 amitryptiline 25mg pills too. Mixing all that with alcohol could do the job is sounds like, since mixing was mentioned here. And alcohol wasnt mentioned at all. Perhaps I'd die by choking on my own vomit in my sleep. That would be ideal i think

Hmm okay I could definitely take more pregabalin than that and more diazepam. I could take idk 500 75mg tablets with 1L 30% Alcohol mixed with 200 5mg diazepam tablets and then take the PPI and anti-emetic to make it sliiiightly less hellish. I could include a small dose of oxy (idk maybe 40mg) and take 50 amitryptiline 25mg pills too. Mixing all that with alcohol could do the job is sounds like, since mixing was mentioned here. And alcohol wasnt mentioned at all. Perhaps I'd die by choking on my own vomit in my sleep. That would be ideal i think
I also have underlying health conditions, so......
And malnutrition. I could binge and put myself at risk for refeeding syndrome and purge to fuck my electrolytes even further
Hmm okay I could definitely take more pregabalin than that and more diazepam. I could take idk 500 75mg tablets with 1L 30% Alcohol mixed with 200 5mg diazepam tablets and then take the PPI and anti-emetic to make it sliiiightly less hellish. I could include a small dose of oxy (idk maybe 40mg) and take 50 amitryptiline 25mg pills too. Mixing all that with alcohol could do the job is sounds like, since mixing was mentioned here. And alcohol wasnt mentioned at all. Perhaps I'd die by choking on my own vomit in my sleep. That would be ideal i think

I also have underlying health conditions, so......
And malnutrition. I could binge and put myself at risk for refeeding syndrome and purge to fuck my electrolytes even further
ALSO my blood glucose levels can get down to coma level and I can just leave it do its thing and continue dropping before I have seizures and slip into a coma and hopefully nobody finds me
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

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Aug 12, 2021
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Hmm okay I could definitely take more pregabalin than that and more diazepam. I could take idk 500 75mg tablets with 1L 30% Alcohol mixed with 200 5mg diazepam tablets and then take the PPI and anti-emetic to make it sliiiightly less hellish. I could include a small dose of oxy (idk maybe 40mg) and take 50 amitryptiline 25mg pills too. Mixing all that with alcohol could do the job is sounds like, since mixing was mentioned here. And alcohol wasnt mentioned at all. Perhaps I'd die by choking on my own vomit in my sleep. That would be ideal i think
ODs DO NOT WORK. Don't waste your time. Adding more and more pills will not make it magically work.
 
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dontwakeme

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ODs DO NOT WORK. Don't waste your time. Adding more and more pills will not make it magically work.
The links you shared specified it could work if you have underlying medical issues. I'm thinking I use my disabilities to my advantage here, then use my anorexia to my advantage and put myself at risk of RFS (ive had it before so thats even better, increases my chances), attempt to induce RFS and thennnn take the OD with a combination of things and add alcohol to the mix. Surely the deadliest mental illness known to man (anorexia) + OD + alcohol would do the trick??? RFS nearly killed me in about an hour, had i not stupidly gone to the hospital that time
 
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dontwakeme

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Aug 10, 2025
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For street drugs like fentanyl it could
I can easily get heroin. But I wouldn't want to shoot up because I'm a pussy. If I asked anyone to shoot up for me they would ring an ambulance if I OD'd. Would snorting it be enough?? I think the H in my city is laced at the moment too, I've seen warnings in the hospitals etc. So perhaps it could work.....
 
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I can easily get heroin. But I wouldn't want to shoot up because I'm a pussy. If I asked anyone to shoot up for me they would ring an ambulance if I OD'd. Would snorting it be enough?? I think the H in my city is laced at the moment too, I've seen warnings in the hospitals etc. So perhaps it could work.....
Fentanyl is more potent that heroin, you need small dossage to leave this world, but as in the "Why ODs fail" it is sold in small dosages
 
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dontwakeme

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Fentanyl is more potent that heroin, you need small dossage to leave this world, but as in the "Why ODs fail" it is sold in small dosages
Fent might be harder for me to get, I'm not sure. I know a spot where people frequently get H and smoke/shoot up. Those people might know. But yeah I think the H has been laced with something similar to fent. Oh god, if I could only get 1mg of pure fent powder, jesus, I'd be sorted for life(death)
 

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