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Guy0117

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Apr 6, 2025
19
90 up. All the time. But sometimes it's kind of held in place / distracted from by ambiguity regarding my spiritual situation

I don't really have friends, I live alone etc, I'm a shut-in, and I'm in a constant state of anxiety and unsurity about what's even going on
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

I revoke my subscription from life.
Nov 1, 2025
192
Definitely around 90-100.
 
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random_user

Human existence is a scam.
Jun 17, 2022
92
Somewhere between 80 and 95 depending on the day.
 
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camusfan_ig

camusfan_ig

Member
Nov 11, 2025
39
85/100 as of right now
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,763
All depends on the level of chronic pain for the day. Today it is about a 90. Other days it might be a 40 or 95, there in again, all about the never-ending crappy pain.

Walter
 
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Failed2AbortYou

Member
Dec 8, 2025
5
I'm gonna say 80. I am absolutely tired of living, and it takes all of what little energy I have to wake up everyday and pretend to live. I don't see it sometimes but the only reason I'm not at 100 is that the most important person in this world to me would be absolutely devastated if I made that choice, and oddly enough that gives me a glimmer of hope and a reason to stay strong.
 
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BillyBob

BillyBob

Experienced
Jun 14, 2018
202
Generally sit at about 90-95 each day. Nothing ever improves and any small form of enjoyment never lasts more then a few minutes at best before feeling like utter rubbish again.
 
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shylady222

shylady222

Member
Dec 6, 2025
21
Definitely 100+.
 
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WeDontKnowTheFuture

Experienced
Feb 3, 2023
251
98, my existence day after day is dread
 
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Claymore7274

Claymore7274

never meant to be loved
Oct 4, 2025
115
60-80 something something, really depends if i woke up fine or sad, i'm still a half-functional person so i guess i'm not that tired
 
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sanction

sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
708
It's the worst. I've done whole weekends.

100.

It's not even just my depression. Most of life is chasing money to buy stuff. Bills. Things that break down. God forbid medical expenses.

It's just a stupid cycle. Pointless.
Exactly. I'm soooo tired of this every single day non-stop chasing money, just to barely be able to survive in this hell

All this endless effort to survive, just to ultimately die in the end

Very pointless cycle indeed
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
339
ב''ה,
101
 
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Spite

Spite

Nil Desperandum.
Aug 20, 2025
217
About 72.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

bark bark ᯓ★
Jul 25, 2024
700
a very 90 right now
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,221
kitteh-phones-it-in
 
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Isolatedloser

Member
Dec 14, 2024
54
70% hopefully 100% soon because this life sucks
 
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nendn

I will only react to constructive suggestions
Nov 23, 2025
32
95
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

Nope your too late i already died
Nov 22, 2024
1,400
75
 
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littlecutecorpse

littlecutecorpse

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ absolute girlfailure ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Nov 13, 2025
171
80-90, though that's probably been shifting with each agonizing day i have to drag myself through. i'm tired already, and now i'm starting to lose the energy to get fed up with the whole world any longer. i just want eternal peace 💔
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
972
My needle is pegged at 100.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,763
80-90, though that's probably been shifting with each agonizing day i have to drag myself through. i'm tired already, and now i'm starting to lose the energy to get fed up with the whole world any longer. i just want eternal peace 💔
I too sometimes, drag myself through a chronic pain filled day, BUT sunshine and warm kind humans like YOU are ALL the difference, thank you for being here!

Love and hugs my good friend,

Walter
 
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Tormented Soul

Tormented Soul

Member
Dec 6, 2025
14
90

so sick of being in pain, tired, and poor!
 
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disgusting-life

disgusting-life

a clown's smile stretched too thin
Dec 25, 2025
75
10^100; a googol
 

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