Randomized Jump CTB?

[IcarusFalling]

Ways to randomize suicide, like Russian roulette? Last month, made 20 nooses, all designed to break, except one and picked one at random and "hung myself". This month doing a randomized shotgun suicide: 19 dummy rounds and 1 buckshot, pick one at random from a bag. Will probably survive, (95%), this helps with SI, makes CTB "interesting". Planning for next month now. Looking for variety of methods. Want randomized jump next month specifically.

Examples:

20 ropes, 1 is designed to break, then swing off a bridge? This one for next month probably. Or with a parachute.
20 syringes with saline, 1 with KCl.

One with a knife?
Don't want to drown.
Alternate poison?

Need to not know if it's gonna CTB or do nothing.
Needs to be cheap.
Needs to be irreversible (e.g. for knife can't do the brachial, because the bleed could be stopped, but a stab to the carotid/femoral could work?).
Needs to be rehearsable (e.g. been using all dummy rounds for the shotgun). That won't work for an injection CTB since it'll give track marks right?
Poison needs to be tasteless if oral so won't know until it's irreversible.

Maybe getting a cat would help with bad feelings.

 

[FishRain3469]

That's pretty interesting stuff you've thought about, thanks for sharing!

 

[IcarusFalling]

That's pretty interesting stuff you've thought about, thanks for sharing!

Thanks rain! I sure do hate life and I love my shotgun, and I love death. have a good day sir! Don't forget to enjoy nature!

 

[hedezev4]

That's a very interesting thought, and I think it really could help in dealing with SI. But the dummy attempts need to be indistinguishable from the real thing. That way, the danger of the event is reduced by 20 times, and it feels like it's not that dangerous.