Venting Random stressful thoughts idk where else to put

[banger12]

Not expecting anybody to read or care but I need to put this shit out somewhere and get it out of my system.

I donk know why I cant

I want to but I cant

I was supposed to be gone by now

I feel lobotomized

The meds make me feel numb

They've taken my motivation

Im a coward

Im a bad person

Im a bad friend

Im such an egocentric piece of shit

Im too weak to do it

I had the money to pull it off but just felt too content and numb by then

What's wrong with me

I hide from the world

Im a coward