Quickest way to CTB

[hereandthere13]

I'm done with living. I'm done with the depression, the anxiety, the constant rumination about how good or bad of a person I am. I'm tired of holding back because I don't want to hurt others. I need to do this for myself.

Quickest way to CTB with the least amount of pain. I don't want to jump of a building or something because I still want my body to be intact (for the most part). Let me know

 

[OnionsOnEverything]

Gunshot to the head

 

[dewdfish]

Hanging.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Hanging.

I'm hoping this is true. Experience suggests otherwise but probably because I've been dicking around with partial. I have seen absurdly fast blackout in videos posted here. It's possible that weighting the rope is all it takes.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Gunshot to the head

"want my body to be intact (for the most part"

 

[Worthless Maid]

I heard about heroin overdose. I don't know how to get them and about their purity.

 

[Hollowman]

Tourniquet

 

[eyesofadingo]

Full suspension hanging would probably be one of your better bets if you can. Either that or a gun but I'm not sure

 

[dewdfish]

I'm hoping this is true. Experience suggests otherwise but probably because I've been dicking around with partial. I have seen absurdly fast blackout in videos posted here. It's possible that weighting the rope is all it takes.

I've tried partial suspension multiple times and it just didn't work for me. I guess full suspension is the way to go lolz

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Full suspension hanging would probably be one of your better bets if you can. Either that or a gun but I'm not sure

I've tried suspension multiple times and it just didn't work for me. I guess full suspension is the way to go lolz

FSH is my method and I'm scared shitless of it. Not a fun place to be.

 

[dewdfish]

FSH is my method and I'm scared shitless of it. Not a fun place to be.

Same but I cannot afford to be here anymore, so it has to be FHS for me.

 

[Hollowman]

Tourniqeut's a little tricky but the medical grade ones look like it'd be more reliable. I was considering a big ziptie with light padding, zero chance of that coming loose. You'd need pillars and a bit of strength to tighten it enough. They also make tightening tools which would be best. I've seen several pics of people succeeding with them. I like the idea of doing it in my bed. Makes it a little better on whoever finds me. They won't have to cut the rope from my hanging corpse.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Same but I cannot afford to be here anymore, so it has to be FHS for me.

Can't afford literally, money-wise?

 

[dewdfish]

Can't afford literally, money-wise?

Figuratively. I just don't wanna be alive any longer

 

[BradGuy123]

I heard about heroin overdose. I don't know how to get them and about their purity.

That's the problem. Law-abiding everyday citizens have no idea where or how to get illicit drugs like this. Presumably you can get them on the street but I wouldn't know what streets to go to. I could try going to a less desirable area of town, but my fear is that I'd be more likely to get robbed or beaten up than find something like that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish for the same, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to cease existing painlessly and never suffer in this torturous existence ever again, the fact that peaceful, guaranteed ways to cease existing are denied is such terrible extreme cruelty to me, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[xBrialesana]

That's the problem. Law-abiding everyday citizens have no idea where or how to get illicit drugs like this. Presumably you can get them on the street but I wouldn't know what streets to go to. I could try going to a less desirable area of town, but my fear is that I'd be more likely to get robbed or beaten up than find something like that.

You see and I'm only afraid that I would find the one cop lmao when I just want to die shit or even if I wanted to find something to help make it bearable and try and even continue living. But for real life just sucks for some people I really believe, and there are some of us that really WOULD run into a cop or get robbed. Why is the world like this.
Gosh I was so miserable in my youth, and part of what led to my downfall was being overprescribed and drugged by doctors/family (abuse/control situation). I would not choose to relive this life whatsoever under any circumstances, but I WOULD go back to when I hand endless benzo/opiate/z-drug prescriptions 24/7 and just make better use. Or start hoarding lol. I could've hoarded like 500 xanax in like 2 months at 13 lol it's not even funny. Like I don't even think Ambien is something reliable to OD on— but even THAT alone I just calculated I could have hoarded 1650 ambien a year with the amount I was getting also at 13 lmao.
Then tne opiates I was given not as much of but that also def adds up. Sorry I must be manically thinking because I don't know why I'm thinking this lmfao. Just ruminating ig.
I can't sleep anymore because I don't get that quantity of pills lol and my tolerance is forever ruined, nothing helps. I took 600mg edibles I've still been up for 5 days. This is a tired ramble, my bad.

 

[BradGuy123]

You see and I'm only afraid that I would find the one cop lmao when I just want to die shit or even if I wanted to find something to help make it bearable and try and even continue living. But for real life just sucks for some people I really believe, and there are some of us that really WOULD run into a cop or get robbed. Why is the world like this.
Gosh I was so miserable in my youth, and part of what led to my downfall was being overprescribed and drugged by doctors/family (abuse/control situation). I would not choose to relive this life whatsoever under any circumstances, but I WOULD go back to when I hand endless benzo/opiate/z-drug prescriptions 24/7 and just make better use. Or start hoarding lol. I could've hoarded like 500 xanax in like 2 months at 13 lol it's not even funny. Like I don't even think Ambien is something reliable to OD on— but even THAT alone I just calculated I could have hoarded 1650 ambien a year with the amount I was getting also at 13 lmao.
Then tne opiates I was given not as much of but that also def adds up. Sorry I must be manically thinking because I don't know why I'm thinking this lmfao. Just ruminating ig.
I can't sleep anymore because I don't get that quantity of pills lol and my tolerance is forever ruined, nothing helps. I took 600mg edibles I've still been up for 5 days. This is a tired ramble, my bad.

I'm s sorry you've had so many difficulties in your life and that you have to deal with all this. I hope things get better for you.

 

[dragon.//]

Hanging.

wouldnt really call that a quick way

 

[dewdfish]

wouldnt really call that a quick way

Losing consciousness in 15-20 seconds and then within 30 min you've successfully passed is pretty quick imo. Which is why I'm going for it instead of SN, although i have the protocol all ready in my drawer.

 

[dragon.//]

Losing consciousness in 15-20 seconds and then within 30 min you've successfully passed is pretty quick imo. Which is why I'm going for it instead of SN, although i have the protocol all ready in my drawer.

i agree with you but i personally wouldn't put it on my quickest methods just because being forced to not breathe for 20 secs sounds easy but it feels nothing like holding your breath for 20 seconds normally.

 

[dewdfish]

i agree with you but i personally wouldn't put it on my quickest methods just because being forced to not breathe for 20 secs sounds easy but it feels nothing like holding your breath for 20 seconds normally.

I feel that. A bullet to the brain is probably on my top 1 quickest methods, however I don't have access to that, so 20 seconds is good enough, I guess…

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Twenty damn seconds. That's not what I've seen in videos, but it happens. I cannot step off the chair knowing what I'm in for. I have nothing but respect for people who do.

 

[fishperson]

Twenty damn seconds. That's not what I've seen in videos, but it happens. I cannot step off the chair knowing what I'm in for. I have nothing but respect for people who do.

Mfs call suicide the easy way out are genuinely stupid. Cause u need balls of steal to do most of these things

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Thinking about trying again. FSH is terrifying. I'm thinking about it to comfort myself today, not because I have real intent to do it tonight. I've been looping like this for weeks if not months

- "I'll do it tonight/tomorrow!"
- I tie the noose up and stand on the chair
- Way too scared to step down
- Return to procrastinating
- Be happy when it's time to sleep
- Experience a moment or two of relief where self-awareness fades
- BAM! WAKE UP, IT'S TOMORROW!

 

[Self Medicated]

Thinking about trying again. FSH is terrifying. I'm thinking about it to comfort myself today, not because I have real intent to do it tonight. I've been looping like this for weeks if not months

- "I'll do it tonight/tomorrow!"
- I tie the noose up and stand on the chair
- Way too scared to step down
- Return to procrastinating
- Be happy when it's time to sleep
- Experience a moment or two of relief where self-awareness fades
- BAM! WAKE UP, IT'S TOMORROW!

I don't know if this is sad or comforting to read something so similar to my every week here. To find that I'm in no way unique or weird (maybe).
Only this week it wasn't bam! tomorrow it was Bam! 53!!