questions for SaSu

[starboy2k]

ok so I have a question….

what is it called when you are alone thinking of a conversation in your head (one you never had in real life) and you're not only replying out loud but also repeating what you're replying with over and over again until you get tired and stop talking…. especially when what you're saying can be either funny as hell or borderline psychotic?

also what is it called when you are watching something and you replay a clip of it over and over and over and over again to the point where you spent almost 25 mins watching the same 15 secs of a 10-15 min video?

(im asking because I know I never have an experience by myself and I know for a fact some of you might do the same thing. is this a symptom of a mental diagnosis? I can't afford and don't even feel like getting diagnosed by a psychiatrist/psychologist so instead let me figure out the "grey matter" of my brain by living vicariously through whatever diagnosis/experiences you unfortunately got or had. thanks for any answers I may receive <3)

 

[BrainSplatter]

1. It could be a lot of things so it's hard to say. I also do similar when I'm in bed but one thing differs I'll rethink real past conversations even ones from years ago then I'll get stuck in a "thought loop" so I'll be stuck in it repeating the same things "why did I do that" "I'm so stupid" "wtf was I thinking" I also pretend to have conversations out loud sometimes and I'll just repeat the same phases again and again but it's usually self talk like "come on you can do this" "man the fuck up" "it's all in your head" "just go outside" stuff like that I'm agoraphobia so I guess it helps me self sooth, it reduces my anxiety a bit and motivates me to some degree. I guess it could be something like Echolalia they think my child's autistic and it's common for people on the spectrum you'll repeat words or phrases others say or on tv so it's like if someone says "are you hungry" you'll repeat it. It can either external which is what my child has or internal so you'll repeat yourself. Does it feel out of your control? When it happens is it daily or only occasionally?

2. This is me with ADHD but I think this could be normal for a lot of people if they really liked the video and it was funny or something. I guess it depends how often it's happening? So it's either I find it really hard focusing and have to replay it a whole bunch of times before it actually goes in my head, I'll hyperfocus on it or get stuck in a sensory loop and will watch it again and again but for me it's usually music. Some songs I'll have on constant repeat listening to it multiple times a day because it sounds cool idk how to explain it but it makes my brain happy in some ways. It's just so satisfying.

 

[painoflife]

Sounds like it could be autism to me

 

[starboy2k]

1. It could be a lot of things so it's hard to say. I also do similar when I'm in bed but one thing differs I'll rethink real past conversations even ones from years ago then I'll get stuck in a "thought loop" so I'll be stuck in it repeating the same things "why did I do that" "I'm so stupid" "wtf was I thinking" I also pretend to have conversations out loud sometimes and I'll just repeat the same phases again and again but it's usually self talk like "come on you can do this" "man the fuck up" "it's all in your head" "just go outside" stuff like that I'm agoraphobia so I guess it helps me self sooth, it reduces my anxiety a bit and motivates me to some degree. I guess it could be something like Echolalia they think my child's autistic and it's common for people on the spectrum you'll repeat words or phrases others say or on tv so it's like if someone says "are you hungry" you'll repeat it. It can either external which is what my child has or internal so you'll repeat yourself. Does it feel out of your control? When it happens is it daily or only occasionally?

2. This is me with ADHD but I think this could be normal for a lot of people if they really liked the video and it was funny or something. I guess it depends how often it's happening? So it's either I find it really hard focusing and have to replay it a whole bunch of times before it actually goes in my head, I'll hyperfocus on it or get stuck in a sensory loop and will watch it again and again but for me it's usually music. Some songs I'll have on constant repeat listening to it multiple times a day because it sounds cool idk how to explain it but it makes my brain happy in some ways. It's just so satisfying.

1.) I do this daily, so many times a day. Literally whole arguments/conversations I have with myself and I was definitely doing this when I had some sort of a "social life" when I was going outside and stuff. And Ive been doing this since I was child sooooo…..gawdammit.

2.) I use to repeat scenes of movies I watched on DVD's to the point where scratches would develop on the back of the CD's and it would make the movie freeze or skip. My mom used to be so pissed but she i guess she didnt care to think those very consistent "actions" could have been AuDHD. I also will repeat the same song 6-7 times, I would repeat the same yt short 10-12 times and etc. 🫩

Sounds like it could be autism to me

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[BrainSplatter]

1.) I do this daily, so many times a day. Literally whole arguments/conversations I have with myself and I was definitely doing this when I had some sort of a "social life" when I was going outside and stuff. And Ive been doing this since I was child sooooo…..gawdammit.

Are you sure it's not like you talking with your like internal monologue? I mean I do that too. It's random stuff really like I'll look in the fridge and it's nearly empty list off all the things I need in my head then I'll say outloud "ok I need to go shopping later" or something like that then my mind will say wait but there's stuff in the cupboard too and I'll say something outloud again "yeah I don't have any money" and it just continues really. It's not constantly like it's definitely my voice it only starts where I'm doing or already thinking about something.

2.) I use to repeat scenes of movies I watched on DVD's to the point where scratches would develop on the back of the CD's and it would make the movie freeze or skip. My mom used to be so pissed but she i guess she didnt care to think those very consistent "actions" could have been AuDHD. I also will repeat the same song 6-7 times, I would repeat the same yt short 10-12 times and

Yeah sounds like it could be icl

 

[starboy2k]

Are you sure it's not like you talking with your like internal monologue? I mean I do that too. It's random stuff really like I'll look in the fridge and it's nearly empty list off all the things I need in my head then I'll say outloud "ok I need to go shopping later" or something like that then my mind will say wait but there's stuff in the cupboard too and I'll say something outloud again "yeah I don't have any money" and it just continues really. It's not constantly like it's definitely my voice it only starts where I'm doing or already thinking about something.


Yeah sounds like it could be icl

Oh no like I will have full blown conversations sometimes, like someone talking to me in my head and Im replying out loud with like full sentences……sometimes I will repeat certain phrases of the fake conversations Im having. Oh my gawd typing this shit out got me sounding really crazy right now holy shiiitt.

 

[BrainSplatter]

Oh no like I will have full blown conversations sometimes, like someone talking to me in my head and Im replying out loud with like full sentences……sometimes I will repeat certain phrases of the fake conversations Im having. Oh my gawd typing this shit out got me sounding really crazy right now holy shiiitt.

Errr is it your voice or someone else's? When does it happen, does anything bring it on? Does it feel out of your control?

 

[starboy2k]

Errr is it your voice or someone else's? When does it happen, does anything bring it on? Does it feel out of your control?

someone else's voice in my head, i only hear my voice when I reply out loud lmao. It happens randomly too, and i guess it only happens when the room is too silent and im deep in my head, or when im watching something and I reenact what Im watching. sometimes I will monologue shit i wanted to say at someone who caused me trauma in the past and those would probably last 10 mins lmao

 

[Whale_bones]

someone else's voice in my head, i only hear my voice when I reply out loud lmao. It happens randomly too, and i guess it only happens when the room is too silent and im deep in my head, or when im watching something and I reenact what Im watching. sometimes I will monologue shit i wanted to say at someone who caused me trauma in the past and those would probably last 10 mins lmao

It could be a lot of things, like @BrainSplatter mentioned some people talk out loud as a self-soothing thing, or even just to help process their thoughts. I think it's pretty common to talk out loud to yourself when you're alone, though most people hear the response in their head as just a continuation of their own thoughts/voice.

If you 100% know it's still your own thoughts (your own as in, produced by your brain) but the voice is consistently different than your own internal voice, with its own style/inflections and opinions, it could be related to dissociation. If you feel like the voice is coming from outside your own mind or inserted there by an outside force, that would be more in the direction of something like psychosis.

It could also just be your personal style of thinking/processing, especially if it mainly happens when you're alone with time to think; if caused by either of the two things I just mentioned, it would likely happen at other times too.

When you replay the same 10-15 second clip over and over, is it because you're forgetting what happened in the clip? Or because you enjoy that part and want to watch it again?

 

[HangMan123]

ok so I have a question….

what is it called when you are alone thinking of a conversation in your head (one you never had in real life) and you're not only replying out loud but also repeating what you're replying with over and over again until you get tired and stop talking…. especially when what you're saying can be either funny as hell or borderline psychotic?

also what is it called when you are watching something and you replay a clip of it over and over and over and over again to the point where you spent almost 25 mins watching the same 15 secs of a 10-15 min video?

(im asking because I know I never have an experience by myself and I know for a fact some of you might do the same thing. is this a symptom of a mental diagnosis? I can't afford and don't even feel like getting diagnosed by a psychiatrist/psychologist so instead let me figure out the "grey matter" of my brain by living vicariously through whatever diagnosis/experiences you unfortunately got or had. thanks for any answers I may receive <3)

1. There's not a word for what you described. I do know that the act of talking aloud is called soliloquy. It's often used in plays and such. For example, Shakespeare's Macbeth is famed for its soliloquies.
2. I guess obsession or fixation?

 

[starboy2k]

It could be a lot of things, like @BrainSplatter mentioned some people talk out loud as a self-soothing thing, or even just to help process their thoughts. I think it's pretty common to talk out loud to yourself when you're alone, though most people hear the response in their head as just a continuation of their own thoughts/voice.

If you 100% know it's still your own thoughts (your own as in, produced by your brain) but the voice is consistently different than your own internal voice, with its own style/inflections and opinions, it could be related to dissociation. If you feel like the voice is coming from outside your own mind or inserted there by an outside force, that would be more in the direction of something like psychosis.

It could also just be your personal style of thinking/processing, especially if it mainly happens when you're alone with time to think; if caused by either of the two things I just mentioned, it would likely happen at other times too.

When you replay the same 10-15 second clip over and over, is it because you're forgetting what happened in the clip? Or because you enjoy that part and want to watch it again?

Dissociation also seems likely since I also maladaptive daydream a lot for years which is a cope for disassociation.
I'll rewind the clip because I enjoy it and it scratches an itch in my brain.