can someone link me to the method of obtaining a kit with sodium whatever? something something dark web. idk. or just discuss.
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im exhausted by my life. i wouldn't know where to begin talking about it, and i dont really want to complain. it's not like i had a horrible life. it just hasn't/doesn't do for me what i need it to. i guess im writing this for myself, but also for whoever is curious. i'll make sure this message is accessible.
this place is profoundly unfair. the version of me that has evolved to survive isn't worth living as. somewhere inside me was something precious and innocent that feels tortured and doesn't want to live. and that's just part of me. there's another part of me that's despicable and unforgivable that deserves to die. my needs weren't met and part of that is on me.
i am thankful for the joy in my life. for my mom for adopting me, and i'm sorry that it's been so difficult. for my beloved XXX who taught me how to love. and for my cherished XXX, who held me at my worst and my best.
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im exhausted by my life. i wouldn't know where to begin talking about it, and i dont really want to complain. it's not like i had a horrible life. it just hasn't/doesn't do for me what i need it to. i guess im writing this for myself, but also for whoever is curious. i'll make sure this message is accessible.
this place is profoundly unfair. the version of me that has evolved to survive isn't worth living as. somewhere inside me was something precious and innocent that feels tortured and doesn't want to live. and that's just part of me. there's another part of me that's despicable and unforgivable that deserves to die. my needs weren't met and part of that is on me.
i am thankful for the joy in my life. for my mom for adopting me, and i'm sorry that it's been so difficult. for my beloved XXX who taught me how to love. and for my cherished XXX, who held me at my worst and my best.
