dying_kwik2000
Member
- Nov 1, 2025
- 38
Once I'm done with this short course, I'm going to end my life.
I'm actually really relieved except I found out that you can't put coal in a stove or it will melt. I was going to use the whole 4kg bag of charcoal in different pots so I'm left using 1kg as stated in the meagthread.
Before I do, I'm going to take confession and communion for the last time and see my psychiatrist because I was scheduled to. I'm hoping to keep my sister's car clean and not scorched by the coals.
Hopefully my family will feel like there is less problems in their life because since I started feeling more suicidal, I'd been very erratic, crying, breaking things, always sad.
I'm going to write a note to my therapist and I'm still not sure if I should write a note to my family. I'm going to see my father in the last few weeks so at least it will give him closure that he saw me before I died.
Apart from sorting out a few dead-ends (no pun intended), dying is a lot easier than I thought.
To be honest, I'm relieved and excited. I don't have a CO meter and currently can't really afford on so I'm just going to burn the coals until they are ready, take some sleeping pills my psychiatrist gave me with some anti-anxiety meds and hope for the best.
I hope to give my ballet jewelry box to my little cousin and my books can be donated. There are also books I need to give back to the library.
I'll also give my tiny keyboard to my other cousin and my sisters can just split my things or sell them.
I'm thinking of giving my mother something to remember me by but I don't know what.
I'm actually really relieved except I found out that you can't put coal in a stove or it will melt. I was going to use the whole 4kg bag of charcoal in different pots so I'm left using 1kg as stated in the meagthread.
Before I do, I'm going to take confession and communion for the last time and see my psychiatrist because I was scheduled to. I'm hoping to keep my sister's car clean and not scorched by the coals.
Hopefully my family will feel like there is less problems in their life because since I started feeling more suicidal, I'd been very erratic, crying, breaking things, always sad.
I'm going to write a note to my therapist and I'm still not sure if I should write a note to my family. I'm going to see my father in the last few weeks so at least it will give him closure that he saw me before I died.
Apart from sorting out a few dead-ends (no pun intended), dying is a lot easier than I thought.
To be honest, I'm relieved and excited. I don't have a CO meter and currently can't really afford on so I'm just going to burn the coals until they are ready, take some sleeping pills my psychiatrist gave me with some anti-anxiety meds and hope for the best.
I hope to give my ballet jewelry box to my little cousin and my books can be donated. There are also books I need to give back to the library.
I'll also give my tiny keyboard to my other cousin and my sisters can just split my things or sell them.
I'm thinking of giving my mother something to remember me by but I don't know what.
