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PsychWardSlayer
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- Dec 5, 2025
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So, after being in a MH after a failed attempt I made a promise to myself, to try in therapy for a couple months and if shit isn't getting better I'm gonna CTB. Monday I saw a psychiatrist and after explaining my situation and my thoughts on death and suicide he started saying "I hope and pray that this stronghold of oppression is lifted from you" and me being a former super Christian (not anymore, not interested in living forever lol) knew he was thinking that my problem. Didn't really think much of it because regardless of that he did his job and gave me new medicine.
But then my FUCKING THERAPIST spent the entire HOUR trying to prove that I was never really a Christian and that me not believing in God was irrational and the cause of my problems (not even a Christian counseling place.) He came to the conclusion that because I didn't bind a demon when performing an exorcism (I know) that I must've contracted a demon because I am a "big target for the devil." He then told me that I won't do it (hahaha) and he knows I've already attempted.
I'm frustrated because I went in there to get help. Everyone tells me life is worth living and I'm not actively suicidal at the moment but it upsets me that this is what I have to deal with. If I had a gun I would probably have shot myself in front of him after he said I wouldn't do it.
But then my FUCKING THERAPIST spent the entire HOUR trying to prove that I was never really a Christian and that me not believing in God was irrational and the cause of my problems (not even a Christian counseling place.) He came to the conclusion that because I didn't bind a demon when performing an exorcism (I know) that I must've contracted a demon because I am a "big target for the devil." He then told me that I won't do it (hahaha) and he knows I've already attempted.
I'm frustrated because I went in there to get help. Everyone tells me life is worth living and I'm not actively suicidal at the moment but it upsets me that this is what I have to deal with. If I had a gun I would probably have shot myself in front of him after he said I wouldn't do it.