Probably going to commit in a few hours

[Phyreen]

I'll probably be dead in a few hours, unless I get too scared.

I don't feel so much fear. Just strange. A certain sadness that this is all my existence came to. I think of my family, and the pain they will have to suffer. But, I have everything ready.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

I'll probably be dead in a few hours, unless I get too scared.

I don't feel so much fear. Just strange. A certain sadness that this is all my existence came to. I think of my family, and the pain they will have to suffer. But, I have everything ready.

this will not be all your existence comes to if you don't want it to be. I hope, no i know that if you go ahead with it, you find whatever you are looking for

 

[blossomsinwilt]

no matter how things turn out, i wish you peace. i felt a similar way when i previously attempted and i probably will feel a similar way again in a month or two

 

[peacebenow]

Sadness is normal. None of this is easy. Wishing you peace.

 

[ToothFairy]

May you find peace with the decision you make

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[Alexandra_]

Good luck to you—may everything turn out exactly as you wish

 

[Phyreen]

I ended up surviving my attempt. For some reason or other, I ran out of helium almost instantly. At that point I just gave up and despaired. I was scared, but in the end I don't want to be alive, and a chance like this will be difficult to come by.
I'm in pretty bad pain, but next time will have to wait. I'm at home now and I can't even shut my own door.

Oh I wish the pain and torture would stop. A girl who I loved properly blocked me too. My heartbreak is unbearable, in addition to my severe depression and self loathing which exists regardless. How the fuck am I supposed to cope. Somebody please save me from this hell. I'm such an idiot I should have refilled the fucking tank I don't want to be here.