Venting Potential psychosis? Venting I guess

[thelazybones]

I don't know where else to post this and I have nobody to talk to so I'm just venting here, I feel as though I am developing some form of psychosis or further mental illness. i live in a country in which firearms are not accessible at all and the past few weeks I've been utterly convinced I am going to get shot whenever cars drive past me . it's got to the point where I will jump or flinch when a car is coming but I know it's not rational which is comforting that there is some form of awareness.

i hate my brain, just venting I suppose. don't really understand why this has come on but life doesn't make any sense does it

 

[WordsAreHard]

It is strange how are we can know something we are thinking is not true but still be so affected by it. Like our own thoughts are out to get us. I'm sorry that you are going through this.

 

[borderlinee]

Why do you feel like you're developing psychosis? Most people who develop psychosis don't realize it. Do you have a fear of going crazy?

 

[thelazybones]

Why do you feel like you're developing psychosis? Most people who develop psychosis don't realize it. Do you have a fear of going crazy?

More that I'm aware of some symptoms - maybe not developed but just symptoms that keep worrying me . sorry I didn't really know how else to word it.

like the fact im scared of being shot when out and about and ive in the past been a bit paranoid that I'm being watched on my work computer . it's all a bit weird I don't really know what it is but in the moment it does feel very real and scary. i usually realise it's weird afterwards. no im not scared of becoming crazy. just a bit worried and confused, it's not helping my already terrible mental state

It is strange how are we can know something we are thinking is not true but still be so affected by it. Like our own thoughts are out to get us. I'm sorry that you are going through this.

it's so strange isn't it. like that we know not to believe our brains but we can't. when im anxious i know im overthinking but it still feels like the worst case scenario is going to happen. so odd