Method Potassium Nitrite (kno2), goodbye thread. The road to ctb. 2/3

[slinkey10]

Could I say I need it for my anxiety I've had nausea meds from him before for that reason

perfect yes - say those nausea meds wernt effective and can you try meta, even 14days worth (which I think is enough) & say youve googled & researched this?

Could I say I need it for my anxiety I've had nausea meds from him before for that reason

Just be carefull he doesnt go down the anti depressant route that most UK gps love going down! say you arent depressed but anxious as as a result of acid reflux type effect.

 

[Anonymous_A]

I got SN the first time I signed up on here. Think it was like 50g in a tub, maybe more. Was so close to drinking it but water licking my finger, then dabbing a bit in the tub. I literally gagged. I didn't have any other meds but owell.

Hats off to anybody who goes this way, hats off to anybody who decides to cbs. Not in a gods way, but the sheer determination to be on your own, absolute loudness yet so quiet in the mind…it's crazy

Best of luck whatever you decide to to. It's had knowing I've somewhat a conversation with somebody in the same spot ( but I'm still hesitant)

 

[cazza82]

perfect yes - say those nausea meds wernt effective and can you try meta, even 14days worth (which I think is enough) & say youve googled & researched this?

Just be carefull he doesnt go down the anti depressant route that most UK gps love going down! say you arent depressed but anxious as as a result of acid reflux type effect.

He knows I have depression and anxiety but he has never offered me antidepressants only propanalol but my therapist is in the same building and she knows shit so I have to be sneaky

For someone who was asking for assistance to locate an SN supplier you're not really in a great position to be offering advice to question other's choices.

He actually messaged me asking me if I would sell him my SN

 

[foreverstardust]

I don't feel like anyone encourages me on this forum I came here because this is the only place I can talk openly about wanting to end my life without judgement.
Does anyone know where I will get that metoclopmamide whatever it's called does it have to be from a GP I'm in the UK I need to get my last bits together

I got mine from an online pharmacy, you fill in a questionnaire and they issue you a real prescription from an online GP. I just said I get migraines, my irl GP never prescribes anything so I couldn't be arsed trying.

 

[Nervous young man]

I think that law only applies in California? I haven't kept up on it. All I know is that I should buy SN now instead of later lol. How'd you buy PN without a bank account or money?

You're right its just more difficult to obtain SN in the states. I do not want to fuck with "alternative forms of payment" it is such a massive nuisance.

why are you suicidal? (without providing identifying info)

<3 for you friend and sending hugs for you on your journey, however it works out

i wish the world were less difficult

Life is cruel and there is no reason for me to endure said suffering, I cannot find a compelling argument for staying alive.

 

[needthebus]

Life is cruel and there is no reason for me to endure said suffering, I cannot find a compelling argument for staying alive.

It's not that cruel if you are 5'11"

 

[Nervous young man]

It's not that cruel if you are 5'11"

I'm actually a transsexual so, it is pretty bad. Among other things even if my life was okay in some respects the trauma I have endured has rendered me basically completely mentally incapable of enjoying it. I exist in a constant state of suffering or anhedonia and nothing else. The only thing remotely close to enjoyment I can extract out of life is fleeting temporary distractions and substance abuse of which drives away the people in my life. I figure at this point I'm already buried above ground so why not ctb.

 

[cme-dme]

It's not that cruel if you are 5'11"

I'm about 6' 5" and yeah my life sucks. If anybody would like to swap heights with me I would be happy to :)

 

[aztexi]

This is a continuation of a previous help thread I posted. Please read the previous thread for feedback and responses any help is appreciated. This thread will exist as a second installment in a three thread series where I will document my ctb attempt and hopefully success. In the final thread I will have moderators delete my account and update the thread with 3 minute interval updates until I am dead or hospitalized.

PN arrives tomorrow.

Hello SaSu tomorrow my PN will arrive in the mail. I still need to order test strips in order to determine the nitrite levels in it but I'm confident. My current plan looks something likes this I'm looking for corrections to this information. Sex: M Weight: 156 Height: 5'11 30 Miligrams of...

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Sex: M
Weight: 156
Height: 5'11

30 Miligrams of Metoclopramide ingested 40 minutes before PN dose
50 Miligrams diphenhydramine taken 60 minutes before PN dose
1000 Miligrams of Ibuproufen taken 60 minutes before PN dose
60 grams of Potassium Nitrite dissolved into 70 mililiters of water and ingested

Hello friends! My Potassium Nitrite got here today, its purity is 95%-102% so maybe testing strips are no longer needed? I'll update this thread with pictures once I find the time to get my PPE on and take them. My questions from the previous thread remain active as I still have no found a suitable location thanks to living with five other people! I'm still waiting for my Metoclopramide to get here once my paycheck hits, I was wondering if its possible to just drink multiple glasses and not have to take it at all. I'm just really excited to ctb, not sticking to the plan means failure! Plan, plan, plan! The crystals are very chunky it looks super toxic. I have over 500g of the stuff too. Any help with my math or even input is greatly appreciated.

Just want to wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you seek.