Help Postponing suicide. Any tips for planning?

[user567890]

I am in the process of postponing my suicide due to familial complications. I have a succesful PSH setup, only problem is- I'm a tad bit scared. It's not that I don't want to die- I very much do. I'm just scared of the following-

1: What if i survive and my family finds me? What do I do?
2: Scared of not experiencing things anymore (this is kinda correlated to the first one, in the sense that if i succeed I won't have to worry about this).
3: Scared of my family's anger.

All in all, I absolutely cannot continue living knowing the type of person I am. Nothing will help.

That's all. Tips would be greatly appreciated. Thank you :D

 

[itsgone2]

Are you not afraid of the process?

 

[user567890]

Are you not afraid of the process?

Not really. I've gotten over what little fear I had. I just want my first attempt to be succesful.

 

[user567890]

Treating it like a terminal illness helps.

 

[Aphid]

The longer you can postpone the easier these steps will be. I know it's hard but every moment you're here, better planning can happen, and more of a chance you'll have to make sure you're making the best decision. In either case, I just hope you're able to make things work.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I am in the process of postponing my suicide due to familial complications. I have a succesful PSH setup, only problem is- I'm a tad bit scared. It's not that I don't want to die- I very much do. I'm just scared of the following-

1: What if i survive and my family finds me? What do I do?
2: Scared of not experiencing things anymore (this is kinda correlated to the first one, in the sense that if i succeed I won't have to worry about this).
3: Scared of my family's anger.

All in all, I absolutely cannot continue living knowing the type of person I am. Nothing will help.

That's all. Tips would be greatly appreciated. Thank you :D

Does your family love you? Do you love them?

 

[user567890]

The longer you can postpone the easier these steps will be. I know it's hard but every moment you're here, better planning can happen, and more of a chance you'll have to make sure you're making the best decision. In either case, I just hope you're able to make things work.

Thank you so much! xx

Does your family love you? Do you love them?

I'm doing it cuz I love them. Id prefer not to get into that tho. People have their reasons for planning their death on this website, as do I.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I'm doing it cuz I love them. Id prefer not to get into that tho. People have their reasons for planning their death on this website, as do I.

Most of what you've said points in the direction of you not going through with it, and that's a GOOD thing. You've mentioned your family repeatedly. They are a very good reason NOT to do it. You sound like you love them very much. Keep thinking of that love and how much it would hurt them if you went through with it. If you're young, you have so very many more things to experience, and a lot of time for things to get better. I hope you continue to keep postponing it. It absolutely breaks my heart when I see people so young with family and a lot of life ahead if them contemplating hurting themselves.

 

[user567890]

Most of what you've said points in the direction of you not going through with it, and that's a GOOD thing. You've mentioned your family repeatedly. They are a very good reason NOT to do it. You sound like you love them very much. Keep thinking of that love and how much it would hurt them if you went through with it. If you're young, you have so very many more things to experience, and a lot of time for things to get better. I hope you continue to keep postponing it. It absolutely breaks my heart when I see people so young with family and a lot of life ahead if them contemplating hurting themselves.

I *am* going through with it no matter what. I've decided a long time back and have lacked resources for a good while.
Suicide hurts everyone. That's not a good enough reason for me. I would appreciate if you gave me advice on my plan itself. If not, that's fine.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I *am* going through with it no matter what. I've decided a long time back and have lacked resources for a good while.
Suicide hurts everyone. That's not a good enough reason for me. I would appreciate if you gave me advice on my plan itself. If not, that's fine.

You said you were in the process of postponing your suicide due to family. So I gave you the best, and heartfelt, advice that I could about that plan.

 

[user567890]

The longer you can postpone the easier these steps will be. I know it's hard but every moment you're here, better planning can happen, and more of a chance you'll have to make sure you're making the best decision. In either case, I just hope you're able to make things work.

How do I practice/experiment?