Venting Possibly on the verge of getting cancelled

[CkWo*$4pENQgC@#QP%`]

Me and my ex had a harsh breakup after almost 3 years of a mutually toxic relationship. Unfortunately for me, they're terrifyingly delusional and lying to people, saying I coerced them and other stuff. I'm a musician with growing prominence in the local scene. My best friend is already almost out the door, and multiple well known people in the scene are cutting me off. Shows haven't been dropped yet, but I'm worried. Without music, I genuinely have no idea what to do with my life.

I still love them, but they've genuinely lost their mind, and their friends are egging them on. It's devastating to see someone you love lose touch with reality, and take it out on you.

This stuff latches on, especially in today's social climate. I'm tempted to just move away, get a fresh start, but I know that's just delaying the end of my career. The only thing worth waiting for is this boy who I like who's really into me (in one way at least), but he lives states away and I don't know what he wants. I wanna see him one more time at least, but I don't know if it's really worth waiting.

Something about this forum is comforting. I found it from one of those articles sensationalizing it, but it seems so much better than that. It's clear there's so much love and care in this community, everyone just wants what is best for everyone.

 

[CkWo*$4pENQgC@#QP%`]

2 monthish update

some of my closest friends have left me

she has started harassing me and my boyfriend, leaving a note on my car that said "fuck you", the really scary part is that I wasn't home, i was downtown, and she found my car

"anonymous" burner accounts to comment on my music and message my boyfriend, and continuing to destroy my reputation

it may seem like im being over dramatic, i must explain that i struggle with the sense of losing control over my life after i was sexually abused in late high school. music is the only outlet i have, and she's very much trying to take that away from me

i'm lurking around this site and gathering all the info i need. I have no one i feel safe talking to about these thoughts, i know my friends and my boyfriend would try to stop me, and i don't want them to