Possibly my last post going with N2

[Chris6666]

Hi,

I think (and hope) this will be my last post here.
I'm going with N2, here is my setup:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/how-do-you-think-about-my-method-n2-with-exit-bag-and-vr.248154/#post-3522807

Everything was tested carefully and seems to work.
The bag is inflating with the VR quite well.

Made a test with a tube in my mouth to breath air. Inflated within 3 minutes (its a bigger bag and the flow out was higher because of the extra tube).
When I tested, I made a concerning detection: I breathed in the pure N2 in a bag (to test, if I'm going to pass out).
It was just a bag full of N2, so not a reliable test (of course didn't pass out)... But the next day I had extreme pain in my throat for a couple of days. Is this normal???
The purity of N2 is 99,999% (N5 grade in germany, highest what you can get here).
Because you pass out quick and die within 15-30 minutes, the throat ache is acceptable (cause you even dont feel it). But I was just wondering...
If it don't work tomorrow, I will have a few more attemps until weekend.

If this doesn't work at all, I'm going to jump. At my place there is a high dam (dammed high ). Mortality 100%. But I don't want to be crushed in 1.000 pieces and end as fish food.
So, N2 is prefered method.

I am still scared as f***, but hopefully, I will beat SI with the VR.
I don't want to die, but the situation makes it necessary.
Therefore I have to do something about SI.

AND I want to warn you. There are some scammers out there. This is the nastiest thing, I ever encountered...
Watch for your money! Watch you might talk to in the "Partners Megathread"...
Just be sensible about this... A lot of assholes are here on the way...

I wanna thank you all. I was not pretty active here, but I learned so much and read a lot..
I will going my way. Hope, you will going your way.
Again: Thank you all.
I will write again, if it was a failure. When not, it was a success...
Good night.

 

[FF777]

if the SI scares you from just that, then 99% chance you are probably not going to jump off of any thing if you end up needing to have a back-up CTB plan, because the SI when you are on the edge of some thing high is INSANE.. you are probably going to be thinking "holy cow nevermind, there has to be some thing better than this"..

but any way, i hope things go well for you no matter what happens.. take good care of your self..

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[need2beskinny_]

You're so brave. I wish I could be like you. See you on the other side one day buddy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace.

 

[Chris6666]

I am still here.
I had 2 attemps. Both times ripped off the bag after 1 minute or so...
SI is a bitch... Thought, I could beat it with VR, but the only thought I had, "I am going to die"...
And when you don't really want to die, this is a big problem!
I had to recover from the attemps mentally. At the second attempt I was shaking when I opened the gas-flow...
Maybe the classic way is the best way.
Smaller bag, fast passing out. This will be the last time trying it with N2.
Will do it on Saturday. If this don't work, I'm going to jump on Sunday.
I could never imagine, this is so hard...

if the SI scares you from just that, then 99% chance you are probably not going to jump off of any thing if you end up needing to have a back-up CTB plan, because the SI when you are on the edge of some thing high is INSANE.. you are probably going to be thinking "holy cow nevermind, there has to be some thing better than this"..

but any way, i hope things go well for you no matter what happens.. take good care of your self..

Maybe.... But jumping of some high is a split-second-decission.
You can't re-do that.
There is no 1-minute time lapse.
You do it, or don't, You are not just "trying it" with a time of 1 minute, when SI can kick in.
When you put the gas on, you are doing it. But 30 secs to 1 minte can be long.
When you jump, its a second, and its over. No matter how you decide while the fly...

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm sorry you're struggling with it. The smaller bag is probably a good idea.

I'm getting the feeling that when my time comes, I might combine this method with SN, even though I realize they may not go together that well.

 

[2muchpain2]

I'm sorry that it didn't work, for your sake.
Jumping is my 2nd option, first if partial hanging. But you are right, SI is a bitch and really makes it so hard!!