I'm sorry you're hurting so much, it's completely undeserved. My only attempt so far was when for the first time in my life I was without friends--I know it's excruciating.
Did something specifically in particular happen today, or is it just the culmination of pain? 
If you're still around, feel free to dm me. I'm working on a few assignments tonight, but I'll be around in between them and when I'm finished. The least you deserve is a listening ear through all of this.