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AllReturnsToNothing

I'm useless
Aug 5, 2020
222
The possibility of friendship wont exist in any form when you deny it will happen ;;

I know, and I appreciate the sentiment. However it's the only way I can protect myself. I can't cope with pain anymore.
 
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hoping to lose hope

hoping to lose hope

<3 Message me to trade music <3
Nov 14, 2020
849
I know, and I appreciate the sentiment. However it's the only way I can protect myself. I can't cope with pain anymore.
You could look at it in another way and take advantage of your negativity.
You could say: screw it if I try and fail and fail and it is impossible I can just CTB
 
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Deleted member 23374

deministrator
Nov 1, 2020
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@MichaelNomad123 at the time i read your post the thread was locked. seems open now.
 
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ovaltinee99

Student
Nov 9, 2020
109
Realised that Sertraline was the cause of my intensified intrusive thoughts and depression - those things went away when I stopped taking it. Now three days into taking Escitalopram and today I woke up before noon. It's thankfully not making me tired or sleepy - at least not yet. No antidepressant yawns, too. Those are seriously the worst. Got an email regarding the next stage of a job application. I may not get it in the end, but it's nice to have to do something in the meantime. Had a nice walk with SO this afternoon. Able to make meals this entire week. Also had lovely interactions with strangers - pharmacist and GP.
 
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BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
1,635
Realised that Sertraline was the cause of my intensified intrusive thoughts and depression - those things went away when I stopped taking it. Now three days into taking Escitalopram and today I woke up before noon. It's thankfully not making me tired or sleepy - at least not yet. No antidepressant yawns, too. Those are seriously the worst. Got an email regarding the next stage of a job application. I may not get it in the end, but it's nice to have to do something in the meantime. Had a nice walk with SO this afternoon. Able to make meals this entire week. Also had lovely interactions with strangers - pharmacist and GP.
Awww, I'm glad things have been looking up and that you were able to realize how your meds were affecting you. I hope escitalopram keeps working well for you.
 
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Yesterday when I was walking in the woods, it felt like it was crowded with other people and they were all hogging the path, expecting me to get out of the way for them. It was irritating.

I picked up a discarded kids bike that I told locals I'd retrieve and dump in a skip. It's been raining so it's outside in the alley right now. LOL unless someone has pinched it.

On the way back I saw a bloke on a Sinclair C5 heading towards me.
"I prefer your ride to mine!" I shouted.
We stopped for a chat and he showed me how fast it could go.
Cool.
 
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BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
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On the way back I saw a bloke on a Sinclair C5 heading towards me.
"I prefer your ride to mine!" I shouted.
We stopped for a chat and he showed me how fast it could go.
Cool.
Lovely. It's nice to have moments like that with strangers.
 
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MichaelNomad123

MichaelNomad123

Jesus
Oct 15, 2020
433
@MichaelNomad123 at the time i read your post the thread was locked. seems open now.
Horray! I mostly just missed it because I came on here this morning to post about my walk in the woods.

I left at 5am and walked through the woods near my home in the dark. I didn't bring a torch, but I probably wouldn't have used one even if I did. I was slightly anxious, which is odd because I have walked these woods many times. I guess my head was in a weird place. I sang songs to the top of the hill to make myself feel better. The top of the hill opens up and there are no trees. It's very steep to the top so I was tired. I had a sit at one of two benches. Where I live is very wet all the time, so I picked the less muddy of the two benches. I set up and lit my stove, boiled some water, had a coffee and a cigarette. I sat for about 2 hours and watched the city across the lough with all its shining lights in the dark. There was a man that walked past, which was a little odd for that time of the night -- he also had an umbrella and was not out of breath, so I suppose he was from one of the farms. Maybe it was Woden. It started raining heavily at that point, so I decided it was time to leave. I went to the store but it was shut. It was a good time.
 
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LooksAtMoonDog

LooksAtMoonDog

Too Long in the Wasteland
Nov 10, 2020
719
My grocery order was ready when I went to pick it up and they didn't leave anything out.
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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Horray! I mostly just missed it because I came on here this morning to post about my walk in the woods.

I left at 5am and walked through the woods near my home in the dark. I didn't bring a torch, but I probably wouldn't have used one even if I did. I was slightly anxious, which is odd because I have walked these woods many times. I guess my head was in a weird place. I sang songs to the top of the hill to make myself feel better. The top of the hill opens up and there are no trees. It's very steep to the top so I was tired. I had a sit at one of two benches. Where I live is very wet all the time, so I picked the less muddy of the two benches. I set up and lit my stove, boiled some water, had a coffee and a cigarette. I sat for about 2 hours and watched the city across the lough with all its shining lights in the dark. There was a man that walked past, which was a little odd for that time of the night -- he also had an umbrella and was not out of breath, so I suppose he was from one of the farms. Maybe it was Woden. It started raining heavily at that point, so I decided it was time to leave. I went to the store but it was shut. It was a good time.
A few years ago, during a particularly hot summer, I used to wait for dusk to go for a walk in the woods. It was lovely and cool and quiet, my only company the owls all waking up and talking to each other.
 
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Caspers

Caspers

Lost
Jun 23, 2020
403
WE'RE GETTING A PUPPY!!
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
Playing poker with @Viro_Major and I'm not paying for it. Thanks mate. Need to forget the dark past few days.
Your name should be @Hero_Major. You're god sent, if that prick exist.
WE'RE GETTING A PUPPY!!
I wanna a room of my own with the newest console, and a car too. A camry would suffice. I wanna 2000 bucks of allowances a week. Thanks *woof woof :heart:
 
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Viro_Major

Viro_Major

Rad maker
Jul 30, 2020
1,303
Playing poker with @Viro_Major and I'm not paying for it. Thanks mate. Need to forget the dark past few days.
Hey, this comment alone makes the effort all worthwhile. Thank you. On saturday, let's play poker with @puppy9 and friends. See you :hug:
 
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wonderworld

wonderworld

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Jun 5, 2020
351
okay, it's me again : this week positive is that I start my new job tomorrow, remember the job I got a couple of months back and posted about in this thread?
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
I'm still standing even though I received a devastating blow.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
Dunno if it's positive, but my doc wants me to increase my meds dosage as the current one is fading away. But for a while it did work a bit, just a bit but it worked.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,057
My new laptop came and it's really cool and fancy. Now I can finally be cool. I have all these thoughts swirling in my head about what I can do now that I finally have a real computer.
 
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KleinerWolf

KleinerWolf

Account Wipe.
Apr 30, 2020
2,700
I have half a bag of old bread,
and toasted them, torn them into smaller pieces,
and left it outside on the ground for the sparrows/other birds

I bet it's hard to find food in the wild.
Bread would probably be like a treat for them.

I also left a plastic container of tap water outside next to the bread lol..
My housemates will definitely think im crazy now but thats fine lmao.

saw the birds munching on the bread.
warms my heart :halo::happy::heart:
 
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Donk

Donk

Useless since day 1
Jan 3, 2020
1,129
I'm one week closer to death. :hihi:
 
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MindFrog

MindFrog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
723
A friend came to visit. It's been a while since i last laughed that much.
 
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Lotus

Lotus

Experienced
Dec 17, 2019
234
I will save this thread, and I hope that I can contribute with something before we head into 2021. I'm happy for all the achievements you all have made so far, whether it's big or small ones.
 
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OopsIdidntwanttodie

OopsIdidntwanttodie

Ctb by the 20th of December
Oct 11, 2020
137
I got a $10 tip at work today :)
 
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awfullife

awfullife

Arcanist
Nov 16, 2019
435
I applied to 2 jobs. I have no chance of getting them but at least I put myself out there.
 
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MrBlue

MrBlue

Arcanist
Jul 1, 2020
416
I've finally been allowed to start CAT therapy. The first session didn't go great and it was hard to judge whether it'll be useful or not, but I'm gonna try to give it a fair shot anyway.
 
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wonderworld

wonderworld

w̶o̶n̶d̶e̶r̶w̶o̶r̶l̶d̶
Jun 5, 2020
351
another week, you know the drill folks,

so my new job didn't work out lol so now I'm jobless.... positive i have an interview in 2 weeks and hopefully that job will be better

(another positive is that i can sleep in lol)
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,050
I killed a boss in demon's souls without dying and without any bouts of uncontrollable rage.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
Eventhough being sick just sucks...

I slept at least 10 h each day last week and had very vivid dreams.

I listened to two entire audiobooks.

Not being able to eat also made me lose some more weight.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
My birthday, until people stole away my right to enjoy that in any type of way... even if I had to work. I was still glad I made it to another one, ya know, personal goals and all vs. the whole suicide thing.
 
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RedRed

RedRed

Member
Oct 24, 2020
93
My mum gave me a newborn kitten! It made me happy and angry at the same time because I love cats, but I also plan to ctb (maybe) next year. I dont think I'll be able to see my little Milan grow old.

Also I ate a bunch of Food for the Gods. I guess that's something.
 
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Toybox

Toybox

life fatigue
Oct 24, 2020
23
It's technically next week but I'm going to see my mom again. It's been so long
 
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