Porn

[deltahead]

what a nightmare, honestly. i've seen basically all type of porn under the sun, no matter how disturbing, ever since i was 11. i used to have sexual roleplays with adults and share images and whatnot. this has dug itself so deep into my gray matter it's become more elemental to my development and life than almost anything else. i cannot go out or be near other people without remembering the images and videos i've seen. the conversations i've had. i really dislike being around my parents. i couldn't even imagine what a real, healthy parental relationship is like because all i'm familiar with are the dozens of perverts i've met who call themselves "daddy" or "mommy". what's supposed to be this unbreakable bond with people who care for you has been reduced to a disgusting fetish and i can't see it as anything else. i felt like being underage was my only desirable quality. i basically played characters for every person i talked with, hoping they'd like me. but now i'm old and gross and i can't stand anyone, no matter how objectively nice and wholesome they are. nowadays the part of my brain that causes me to still look at porn is effectively a phantom limb. i find it awful. i find it makes me a terrible, hypocritical, stunted and creepy person. and yet i still do it, puppeteered by some bullshit monkey instincts. if i can go 3 days without at least looking at porn, i feel almost relieved.

it's fucking embarassing, really. i'm a grown man at this point, people my age have so many incredible, vivid relationships and so many responsibilities, meanwhile i'm stuck here like this. i don't even have a REASON for being like this, aside from being pretty much insane.

 

[Severen]

what a nightmare, honestly. i've seen basically all type of porn under the sun, no matter how disturbing, ever since i was 11. i used to have sexual roleplays with adults and share images and whatnot. this has dug itself so deep into my gray matter it's become more elemental to my development and life than almost anything else. i cannot go out or be near other people without remembering the images and videos i've seen. the conversations i've had. i really dislike being around my parents. i couldn't even imagine what a real, healthy parental relationship is like because all i'm familiar with are the dozens of perverts i've met who call themselves "daddy" or "mommy". what's supposed to be this unbreakable bond with people who care for you has been reduced to a disgusting fetish and i can't see it as anything else. i felt like being underage was my only desirable quality. i basically played characters for every person i talked with, hoping they'd like me. but now i'm old and gross and i can't stand anyone, no matter how objectively nice and wholesome they are. nowadays the part of my brain that causes me to still look at porn is effectively a phantom limb. i find it awful. i find it makes me a terrible, hypocritical, stunted and creepy person. and yet i still do it, puppeteered by some bullshit monkey instincts. if i can go 3 days without at least looking at porn, i feel almost relieved.

it's fucking embarassing, really. i'm a grown man at this point, people my age have so many incredible, vivid relationships and so many responsibilities, meanwhile i'm stuck here like this. i don't even have a REASON for being like this, aside from being pretty much insane.

There is just some shit, 11 year olds shouldn't be exposed to on a daily basis... Basically, up until your brain reaches the age of 25, it is still developing. And everything and everyone can have a profound effect on how your brain is developed. It's like your brain is going through the programming process until you are 25. That is why it wasn't hard for the Nazis to raise a generation of the perfect Nazi soldiers for WW II.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

My meds ruined porn for me.
I wasn't into very hardcore stuff in the first place, though. I used to like cuddly lesbians, on occasion one thing the other up and stimulating her.
Now it's like watching a National Geographic documentary about mating octopi: entertaining for roughly five minutes.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Fuck porn anyway. Why watch other men have sex with women when you just have sex with women. Porn never made sense to me.

I'll trade you some of this major social anxiety lol

 

[Severen]

I'll trade you some of this major social anxiety lol

Alcohol or Xanax, dude... Nice clothes too. It can make a huge difference.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

what a nightmare, honestly. i've seen basically all type of porn under the sun, no matter how disturbing, ever since i was 11. i used to have sexual roleplays with adults and share images and whatnot. this has dug itself so deep into my gray matter it's become more elemental to my development and life than almost anything else. i cannot go out or be near other people without remembering the images and videos i've seen. the conversations i've had. i really dislike being around my parents. i couldn't even imagine what a real, healthy parental relationship is like because all i'm familiar with are the dozens of perverts i've met who call themselves "daddy" or "mommy". what's supposed to be this unbreakable bond with people who care for you has been reduced to a disgusting fetish and i can't see it as anything else. i felt like being underage was my only desirable quality. i basically played characters for every person i talked with, hoping they'd like me. but now i'm old and gross and i can't stand anyone, no matter how objectively nice and wholesome they are. nowadays the part of my brain that causes me to still look at porn is effectively a phantom limb. i find it awful. i find it makes me a terrible, hypocritical, stunted and creepy person. and yet i still do it, puppeteered by some bullshit monkey instincts. if i can go 3 days without at least looking at porn, i feel almost relieved.

it's fucking embarassing, really. i'm a grown man at this point, people my age have so many incredible, vivid relationships and so many responsibilities, meanwhile i'm stuck here like this. i don't even have a REASON for being like this, aside from being pretty much insane.

You pretty much sound like me, I've seen everything, I constantly think about what I've seen, it's affected my fantasies..and it's impossible to quit... I've pretty much given up because there's no way to stop an addiction when your fix is free... I have a feeling I've always been fucked up in a way, I remember some strange things from the past but access to porn has just added to that, it has slowly eaten away at me over 10 years and now I feel like I'm just a shell of who I should be, all moral and soul has been ripped from my body..

 

[Severen]

Now it's like watching a National Geographic documentary about mating octopi: entertaining for roughly five minutes.

Well essentially that is what it is... So your meds are just helping you see reality more clearly. In order to see anything else, you have to be brainwashed or in monkey mating mode... Maybe these meds can make you look at everything else in this universe, more clearly.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

Alcohol or Xanax, dude... Nice clothes too. It can make a huge difference.

Xans are the only thing I haven't tried out of those, they may help a bit but I don't feel like my social anxiety or depression can be solved with pills, only time and determination, if that even works....The cause isn't merely chemical imbalance, it's bad life/personal choices, my views on work, regrets, attachments....

 

[Severen]

Xans are the only thing I haven't tried out of those, they may help a bit but I don't feel like my social anxiety or depression can be solved with pills, only time and determination, if that even works....The cause isn't merely chemical imbalance, it's bad life/personal choices, my views on work, regrets, attachments....

Bad life choices you made because you were born to make those bad life choices. And such choices can lead to being so traumatized, time and determination wont do anything for you.

 

[The Hunter]

Anyone else here severely addicted to porn?

Yes, I watch a lot of porn. if I had a gf or a waifu, I probably would not watch so much.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Yes, I watch a lot of porn. if I had a gf or a waifu, I probably would not watch so much.

Why not? Mastrubating to porn is just a kind of sexual activity and you need not stop because of another one. My wife used to be very horny (anal, facial and swallow ) but I never stopped nor even slowed down wanking on porn!

 

[Severen]

Yes, I watch a lot of porn. if I had a gf or a waifu, I probably would not watch so much.

Waifu is another word for wife, right?

 

[The Hunter]

Waifu is another word for wife, right?

yea

 

[Bärchen]

Sometimes i watch it.VR porn is great on Oculus Go....
I like it more than the real stuff with a prostitute, but thats long time ago.

 

[LoNatural]

Porn is poison, nofap is legit. It's really hard to do it without a partner unfortunately

 

[anna-morphosis]

this is definitely really weird, but for the most part, porn does absolutely nothing for me, there's only one really specific thing about it that i turn to sometimes as a source of a certain kind of comfort, and it's looking for snippets of dialogue where people seem to be bonding really excitedly about certain fetishes. the sex acts in themselves mostly just feel depressing and meaningless, it's only that really particular like "deeply bonding over specific shared sexual perversion" thing that gives me the rush

 

[Ramirez]

i sure love me some porn. theres no bonding in the stuff i watch tho lmao

 

[throwaway123]

Porn/Masturbation destroys your life.

People these days are all fake. All porn is fake man. True love does not exist if it ever did. Sex used to be about making love but I doubt it ever was. It is a fancy illusion you grow up with but when you become an adult the sad reality hits you and you realize: It's all fake.

 

[TimeToDie]

Porn/Masturbation destroys your life.

Now I don't view much porn since my sex drive has been dead for years and my sexual function is almost non-existent. I'd be fucking THRILLED if porn got me hard & excited. Masturbation is fun! I had no idea how good I had it 30 years ago when I'd masturbate 3 times a day. You don't miss it till it's gone.

 

[blanketyblk]

My "porn" is mostly yuri manga for obvious reasons, and most of that isn't even x-rated. It's all emotional, maybe some kissing or gentle sex in some of them. Actual porn depresses me, especially because there's little of it made by and for lesbians out there and so, so, so much fucked up misogyny in the "mainstream" industry. I'm told it's all getting more and more extreme over time too. What happened to two people just enjoying one another for the sake of it and for their mutual pleasure?

you really do have to hunt around for proper lesbian porn made for lesbians.. most of the girl-on-girl stuff is so just no.. it's made for the male fantasy of what lesbian sex is like. at least from my point of view. however Girlfriend Films stuff is pretty good. but still some of them are way to eeky.

 

[TimeToDie]

you really do have to hunt around for proper lesbian porn made for lesbians.. most of the girl-on-girl stuff is so just no.. it's made for the male fantasy of what lesbian sex is like. at least from my point of view. however Girlfriend Films stuff is pretty good. but still some of them are way to eeky.

I simply had to check out Girlfriend Films. I must say that I 100% approve and I suspect that other straight guys would quite enjoy it as well. I was surprised to see their endless supply of lipstick lesbians with not a butch chick in sight. The only substantive difference I noticed was scissoring which is rare when men write the script.

 

[blanketyblk]

I simply had to check out Girlfriend Films. I must say that I 100% approve and I suspect that other straight guys would quite enjoy it as well. I was surprised to see their endless supply of lipstick lesbians with not a butch chick in sight. The only substantive difference I noticed was scissoring which is rare when men write the script.

see. I'm into the butch girls. thats my type :-). the reason why Girlfriend films are decent is because they don't after 3 minutes of foreplay whip out a sex toy.. i like toys as much as the next girl. but not all the time and not with-in 3 minutes :-)

Also should check out
Abby winters
Club 59

but it's been ages since i've seen any of them. but they use to be quite good at least from a gay girls point of view.

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

I hear Girls Out West is nice, and Crashpad is supposed to be very queer-friendly in that they have butch, nonbinary, and trans actors as well. There aren't many butch or even tweener (think "Ellen") actresses, I notice, and while I definitely prefer femmes, the lack of representation is a distortion of reality. And not all butches are stone or act overly masculine!

 

[blanketyblk]

and while I definitely prefer femmes, the lack of representation is a distortion of reality. And not all butches are stone or act overly masculine!

So true. the media portrayal of what a lesbian should look and act like is just infuriating most of the time. but at least there are now more movies and tv shows catering to not standard relationships. so thats progress :-)

Growing up, it was hard to find anything on TV that shows a nonstandard relationship. And if it did the relationship normally ended in tragedy. (looking at you 'The Fox' and 'The Children's Hour')

I see you also read Yuri manga, I've only started to get into that over the last few months. and my fav has to be "bloom into you" (Yagate Kimi ni Naru). that series is so well done. but if you have any other recommendations. please let me know

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I watch porn secretly, but my boyfriend disapproves. My sex drive is pretty high but we haven't had sex for a while, so now, I usually turn to porn to get off.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I watch porn secretly, but my boyfriend disapproves. My sex drive is pretty high but we haven't had sex in a while, so now, I usually turn to porn to get off.

I can relate, that's a pity to be ashamed about that. Several years ago my wife and I used to watch porn together, but now... haven't had sex for four years. I don't want to, though.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I can relate, that's a pity to be ashamed about that. Several years ago my wife and I used to watch porn together, but now... haven't had sex for four years. I don't want to, though.

He comes from a pretty conservative background. He thinks watching porn and masturbating are bad for my health. Haven't had sex for maybe a month now, but I think it's because my sex drive is higher than his.

 

[Neroli]

I didn't read this whole thread but will leave some links here.

Fightthenewdrug.org

Truthaboutporn.org

joinfortify.com

 

[ish]

Pornography, and especially that available in the online version is generally for pro-life purposes. Although she is officially condemning
while it is there, its recipients are mostly men, nature acts like that, women are not really visual, they try to for men for the appearance (decorations, makeup, etc.). It's wider this
understood survival instinct, which is not easy to overcome.

 

[thomasdoyletad]

Never could get into pornography. I prefer to write my own erotica. Used to be a member of some communities where people would work together on stories; take turns advancing the plot or play different characters. But it got depressing fast. People have no imagination and it was a constant reminder of how wildly far to the opposite of what's considered attractive people like me are. Also it's a great way to find out all about people's desires at their most primal, and that's some fucking ugly shit, but if you're ever in doubt that sex, for 99% of people (regardless of their sex) is almost entirely about power, entitlement and the commodification of humanity they're great places to cure that delusion, or if you've ever doubted that attraction is almost exclusively the result of genetic impulses fed-through the lizard-brain in which higher brain functions are only engaged to rationalise one's choices post-facto as having some sort of depth again you will be cured, and if you've ever doubted how pathetically susceptible people are to the halo bias again these are good places to get a reality fix. They give some glimpse into our gender dichotomy at its most naked, and it's something I find intolerable gross.