[Poll] Where on the recovery cycle are you? (There is a diagram)

[NZkiwi]

i cant sleep
4am
based on stages of change diagram
im in action phase
seeing psychologist in 7 hours
train leaves in 2 hours

pre contemplative, im not thinking about recovery/im set on killing myself

contemplative, im thinking about recovery but im not really doing anything about it

preperation
im gonna start preparing to recover, organsing appointments with dr, therapy, etc.

action (me), im taking meds, doing therapy, talking to my friends

maintence
im doing okay and workint hard not to kill myself and life is okay
.

relapse
fuck my life
here we go again.
i want tk die


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hope this is helpful
im gonna try get some shut eye

 

[infinitesimal]

i honestly feel like im at every stage all at once, its a complicated feeling. i feel like ive gone through this cycle a million times. one choice wouldnt accurately describe it but i dont wanna distort the poll…

picked preparation since its technically the closest (trying to find new meds and psych, trying to get into college again) but i feel traits from the other stages too. goodnight to you!

 

[Insufficent]

I think im on the preperation point but stll actively thinking that i will die by suicide at somepoint of my life. I have what i call a backdoor. If a certain thing happens next year it might reduce the chance of me leaving early. Before that i need something else to do besides job.

 

[StarsAbove]

Preparation and action. I havent scheduled a therapy session but I reached out. I am working with a psychiatrist but we havent found the right med. I am however doing other things to have a healthy routine.

I domt want to jinx it, but I thi k I am finally out of the hole. Dunno how you go from feeling suicidal to completely betrer in the same day, but I'm not complaining!

Go to sleep!

 

[NZkiwi]

Go to sleep!

Didn't end up sleeping, on train to see mental health team

Dunno how you go from feeling suicidal to completely betrer in the same day

I think human can feel both emotions at the same time (mixed episode) which low key makes things harder I wsh i was consistent internally and not so incongruent

thanks for your kind words

picked preparation since its technically the closest (trying to find new meds and psych, trying to get into college again) but i feel traits from the other stages too. goodnight to you!

proud of you friend

Before that i need something else to do besides job.

beside job have you tried hobby, relationship or charity? :P

 

[SilentAssimilation]

I'm in both the taking action stage, and the maintence stage. More in the taking action stage. I've reconnected with a childhood friend and his friend group, and that made a huge difference for me.

 

[NZkiwi]

I've reconnected with a childhood friend and his friend group, and that made a huge difference for me.

that's warming to hear
thank you for sharing

did you feel not alone and feel like you could share what ever you wanted with the childhood friend ?

 

[StarsAbove]

I think human can feel both emotions at the same time (mixed episode) which low key makes things harder I wsh i was consistent internally and not so incongruent

That is true, I wouldn't have even thought about a mixed episode to convey that. It feels like emotional whiplash. My neck hurts.
Do you seem happy on the outside? I bet you have to be pretty outgoing if you are a bartender

 

[Insufficent]

beside job have you tried hobby, relationship or charity? :P

I have a hobby but ita only 3 times a week for one hour. Deleted 3 dating apps after 3 years because no matches. Charity, well i go to peer support meetings couple of times a week. I wouldnt mind a working relationship but im sort of buried that dream.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Long term chronic mental illness that is somewhat managed. But precontemplative. Set on leaving this 24/7 torture chamber planet.