[poll] is your current method the same as your original method?

[WaitingForTheBus]

Yep. I like to inflict pain on myself when I feel this way, emotional and physical. I feel shitty and hate myself so I always thought I deserve to die in a horrible manner. Some things I wouldn't have the courage to do though like gun or jumping. I was prepared however to die in a MVA at high speed.

I would love to get my hands on N but don't want to fail in obtaining it. So, I have decided to go with SN but am still waiting for everything to arrive.

MVA is now my impulsive back up method. If I feel that things have escalated to a point where I can no longer go on and I still don't have my SN supplies, then I will just do it this way. Today, that day seems closer than ever.

Fuck Life.

 

[Anon1337]

My first method was gun but train is much easier to access.

 

[lost illusions]

It gets boring after a while, spin then click

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

I vacillate between poisoning and inert gases, or possibly both at once, simply to make sure of the outcome.

 

[Jen Erik]

Was partial suspension, now exit bag w/nitrogen

 

[HappilySoaring]

I've never been too fond of inflicting pain on myself or anything else for that matter. I had a friend hang himself successfully, but the idea seems gruesome and excruciating. Painlessly and peacefully is the way I've always dreamed of going, which is why I sold my gun a few weeks ago. I still want to look somewhat pretty when someone finds me :) N or SN are solid choices.

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

I've done full suspension hanging where I've let go of the bar and dropped four feet-my fall stopped by the rope jerking my neck but I botched that by tying a regular knot instead of a slipknot. Then I became fixated on drinking 2-3 gallons of water which causes the brain to swell causing death but I didn't do that. Then I thought I might drink a full bottle of alcohol but ended up not doing that either. Now I want to try CO in a tent, combined with ingesting SN, and partial hanging all at the same time but even now I know unless it's full suspension, I likely will be unsuccessful.

 

[TiredHorse]

It takes so much will power to freaking do partial. I don't know how people succeed at it.

I don't know, either.

I tried exsang 35 years ago --failed miserably and decided it was too painful.
Shifted to gun, but wasn't happy about the mess/visual effect on family.
Now trying eb/N2, but have flinched several times (weekly re-runs!). It takes me a surprisingly long time to black out.
May go back to gun if this goes on much longer.

 

[nzdarkshark]

Was originally going to do partial but failed the first time so I'm gonna try Sn.

 

[Retched]

It gets boring after a while, spin then click

Can I play?

 

[Final Escape]

I was originally going to go with a gun or hanging. I decided a gun was too violent. Also, I have tried even full suspension hanging and apparently my carotid arteries are impossible to compress. So now I'm going to go with the exit bag. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Hanging was not for me, gun might be ok if I knew what I was doing. Nitrogen is kind of scary too but a lot more humane and not messy.

 

[Empty Smile]

Was going to go with hanging, but now very seriously considering the propane heater/CO in tent method.

 

[Retched]

Was going to go with hanging, but now very seriously considering the propane heater/CO in tent method.

There seems to be mixed reactions to propane heaters...have you researched it? I am really considering this method, though I don't know if it would be in a tent, or inside.

 

[Empty Smile]

There seems to be mixed reactions to propane heaters...have you researched it? I am really considering this method, though I don't know if it would be in a tent, or inside.

I tried out my Mr Buddy heater in my living room. After about 15 minutes, I started getting lightheaded and dizzy and feeling like I was going to pass out. I have read up on it, and it can be successful. I've seen articles of accidental deaths because of propane heaters. I am going to upgrade the tank size to a gas grill size tank and get rid of the little fuel canisters used for hiking/camping. Just need to buy a hose adapter for it. Cost about 20 bucks at Walmart.

Edit: I also noticed while it was running, that a lot of fumes come from the top of it.

 

[MAIO]

I was originally going to go with a gun or hanging. I decided a gun was too violent. Also, I have tried even full suspension hanging and apparently my carotid arteries are impossible to compress. So now I'm going to go with the exit bag. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

Massive dosage of hash oil + anti nausea. After that sodium Aizide and hanging before the sodium Aizide kicks it. I am actually excited :)

 

[rabid_squirrel]

I'm grateful for this site,I was so confidant about the hanging method,now seeing you guys' experiences, not so much.
The past failures have caused permanent brain and physical damages to me.I have to be very careful this time.

 

[sadsoul]

Wanted to kill myself via alcohol poisoning since my alcohol tolerance is low. But couldn't bring myself to do it, so now I'm going with partial. People in this thread have mentioned that they don't understand how someone can have the willpower to do partial. What I don't understand is how someone can have the energy to collect all the materials needed for other methods lol.

 

[Retched]

I tried out my Mr Buddy heater in my living room. After about 15 minutes, I started getting lightheaded and dizzy and feeling like I was going to pass out. I have read up on it, and it can be successful. I've seen articles of accidental deaths because of propane heaters. I am going to upgrade the tank size to a gas grill size tank and get rid of the little fuel canisters used for hiking/camping. Just need to buy a hose adapter for it. Cost about 20 bucks at Walmart.

Edit: I also noticed while it was running, that a lot of fumes come from the top of it.

That's awesome. What is your make/model number? Then you just need a hose adapter? This method really is inspiring me...

 

[Empty Smile]

That's awesome. What is your make/model number? Then you just need a hose adapter? This method really is inspiring me...

Mr. Heater Portable Outdoor Camping, Hunting, Job Site Propane Heater..

Model number F232000

You can see the small green tank on the side. I plan to upgrade that size.

Yes the hose adapter is so you can hook it to a larger tank.

 

[Retched]

Thank you! I have deja vu, sorry my memory is bad if we had this conversation prior. lol.

 

[Retched]

They aren't pricey either!

 

[AveryConure]

Was going to attempt to get a gun before, but I barely know how to use one and my family would just confiscate it once they found out about it anyways. If my mom banned my stepdad from bringing his shotgun to the house cause of me then she would be smart enough to figure out I had one and etc.

I'm practicing hanging to try to finally do it right when my family are both leaving the house working. If I somehow fuck it up I'll attempt the night night method cause by then I would have enough cash to order the supplies I need.

 

[Empty Smile]

Thank you! I have deja vu, sorry my memory is bad if we had this conversation prior. lol.

Lol, we may have. I did post about this last week or week before. Maybe you posted or seen that thread.

 

[Empty Smile]

They aren't pricey either!

No they aren't. And it does put off some excellent heat!

 

[Mud.]

Yes. No changes here.
N. for president.

I want to die with dignity and I want to leave as little pain behind as possible
No traumas, no mess for others.

When I go, both my parents will be gone already.
My mother is terminally ill, my father died a long time ago.
I have no siblings or children.
My last relationship ended a few years ago and I won't start a new one.
I'm not making any new friends anymore either.

Before I end myself, I will destroy everything I can about myself.
Starting with my hardisk and probably ending with every picture I can find.
When I go, I'm really done here.

I always plan everything, it's in my nature, so I'm totally prepared.
Both mentally and practically.

I'm also completely at peace with it.
My date is still quite some time away, but I'm not afraid of the act itself at all.

One of the main reasons I've decided to take matters into my own hands is my illness.
I have epilepsy and for once, that will be actually a good thing.

Right now, a medicine cocktail keeps me stable.(The only problem is that it is destroying my body.)
But there have been years of at least three grand mals (total blackouts) a week.
That's 150+ attacks per year. And those are just the big seizures.
Every moment of the day an attack can come out of the blue.

When my epilepsy really took off, my doctor sent me to a psychiatrist once,
He concluded that I have a Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
I agreed, shook his hand and that's the last the time I've seen him or any other psychiatrist.

Of course I have PTSD. Everyday is a bloody minefield.
But I've learned to deal with the fear of losing consciousness while I'm fully awake and stuffed with adrenaline
Fighting doesn't hold an attack at bay, it usually only makes things worse, so I've learned to give over.

That skill will come in handy.
Also, my stomach is one of the few strong things I've got left.
So I'll drink it and keep it in, even if it's the last thing I do ;)

 

[Dead_Inside]

I did my damn best to fucking OD out of this world using beta blockers/opiates/benzos /alcohol but hey - guess you can't kill me that way. So now I am going to use a gun. That fails .... well then I will probably never be able to do anything for myself again. Because I will unload that gun into myself before I give up. I know I can bleed to death if nothing else. Come on life - let me have this one little thing. Please.

 

[Toenditall]

Original was to slut my wrists (turns out I don't have to balls bloodily hard thing to do) but now I'm going od + partial hanging seems a lot more peaceful as much as I really want to bleed out

 

[lost illusions]

Can I play?

When?

 

[Retched]

When?

Whenever.

 

[lost illusions]

Whenever.

Where